This one is for you... to the Cafe

I started to write and this is what came out today... I appreciate all my friends on here

I want to write today because I miss my friends, their kind words and their responses to the thoughts that flood my mind on a daily basis.  Yet, as I sit and review poems I am stuck… almost emotionless.  Not happy but not sad.  Not elated yet not mad.  I don’t want to write dark, don’t want to write about love.  I sit and think about what is on my mind and I am running on empty.  I can’t say it is writers block, I always have something to say.  I guess at this moment I am just coasting through my days not doing much of anything other than hoping something exciting happens today.  I wait for requests to review because it makes me happy, happy to know that my friends are out there writing and doing their thing.  I just wonder when my mojo is going to come back, my passion to tell you what I am thinking or feeling and the moment I can pour my emotions on to paper for you to all read.  I miss all of you guys…if you only knew how s****y my existence is at times and the things I go through on a daily basis.  My moment away from it all is when I open up the Café… almost as if I am entering a different world where we don’t judge each other but we admire each other’s passions, feelings and hard work.  I mean it when I say writing helps save my sanity.  It is more than a passion, more than an outlet.  Writing is more of a savior to my existence until the pieces of the puzzle known as my life are all picked up and put back together.  I’ve told you all about my failed marriage, my kids, my depression and everything in between.  And everyone is amazing enough to take a few moments to review my work and leave a message and regardless of the words in the message I understand that the words truly mean you are there for me and I appreciate that more than anything.  So thank you to those that actually take the time to read this…. I opened up a blank document and this is what came out today.  Enjoy

Reviews

[W R Stowe]

Life is like an amusement park,we have two types of relationships 1) "the merry go-round which runs slow so you can get in and out providing the ride is operating which unfortunately is the choice made by many they are the ones whom lack commitment" 2)"the roller coaster which once you board you get strapped in and have to continue all the ups and downs twist and spins and cork screwing putting you upside down at times until the ride comes to a stop.The ride is over when one of us dies I told my wife from the get go that a relationship with me would be the thrilling and adventuring roller coaster ride.Writing is not much different from a Ferris wheel here your just stopped to pick up a new writer what you think of my analogy?

Bill

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you my friend.... I like that analogy... its so true. :)

[W R Stowe]

your are quite welcome Aaron

Bill

[Irenic]

thanks for aprreciating all of us, your allies.

life is like moving wheel. sometimes we have piles of tasks and sometimes wee are left with nothing.

[AaronFreitas]

Very true irenic... I had to take time to thank everyone for being so helpful and supportive... thank you :)

[Irenic]

Welcome......:)

[B]

I love this place
such a pleasure to be around so many amazing people

I know how you feel ...... I love this write
So honest

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Nisreenaa :) It is an awesome place filled with a lot of great people :)

[B]

It really is

[AaronFreitas]

And of course an awesome person named Nisreenaa is here so it's a bonus :)

[B]

lol Aaron you are awesomeness :)

[JayceeC]

Aaron all writers go through this at some time. The ones who say not, well there turn is coming. No one is meant to produce endless streams of anything unless you include excrement and even that has a cycle. Take the time by staying connected in whatever way you need. It will all come back at some point. And you'll slip back in and wonder why you were worried. One of the most beautiful things about writing communities is that most of us are dealing or have had to deal with our own issues. Just hang in there. We're always here though faces change from hour to hour. You will mmake it through.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you my friend :) I hit a rough patch...at the very beginning I wrote and just didn't care about opinions or anything. After a while I started to care and get more passionate about my writings wanting them to reach people and touch people rather than only being an outlet for myself. Thanks for the review my friend

[JayceeC]

Always Aaron...but here is the thing..your work can do both

[micky]

This is heartbreaking to know this is a all to well experiance ive come to know well and unfortunatly as it appears so have you.
I love this piece so far my fav Aaron well done dude!!!!:)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Micky... the Cafe is an awesome place. It really gave me a place to vent, share my feelings and make lots of new friends.

[Coyote Poetry]

All of us had learn the hard lessons of life. The pen and paper allow us to release them. If we are lucky. Can help another person in the same situation. Good to have met you and I hope to read more of your work.
Coyote

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Coyote. I've met a lot of good people on here with amazing minds including yo! Thanks for the support

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome. We need people to help us and a network to expand our work.

[ANTO]

Blank documents have a funny way of becoming wordy-magnets through telekinesis - be careful - I always wear a tin-foil hat to prevent that - which is why I can't produce anything as honest as this.

You are appreciated here Aaron. I remember when you first came here...(Anto drones on and on here)....blah...blah and you had the runny nose that noobs have and we had to tie your laces and.....blah ...blah

Seriously though - its your home and my home and everyone who feels at home here and it wouldnt be the same without you mate. :))

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much ANTO! This place has become my peace, my escape. I am thankful for it and the people that make it special such as you. Thanks my friend!

[ANTO]

You're too kind. Thank you Aaron. :)

[Miyana Sparks]

I am speechless, I don't know what to say. But I just want to tell you, you've got talent that is so valuable and I am glad that you are sharing it with us here. When times get tough, for me, writing is the way I escape pain, so I can understand hoe much it means to you. Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts, and whatever you are facing right now, I hope it gets better soon. :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Miyana! Thank you for wishes... I definitely can use them right now :) And thanks for taking time to read and comment... I appreciate you :)

[Miyana Sparks]

No problem!

[Ohhhwillow]

It is always nice to know you are a part of an affectionate community, this is very touching

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Willow :)

[Ana B.]

You are right, it is an entirely different world here.....a haven for those who wish to heal and be healed. I love this site and i'm very glad that it hepls you. No matter what, our words are our magic :)

[AaronFreitas]

Very true Ana... you are one of the people I interact with or talk to in reviews so I definitely appreciate you stopping by to comment. Your words mean a lot to me so don't be a stranger... thank you!

[Ana B.]

Most definitely won't be a stranger :) Anytime my friend

[AaronFreitas]

:) and know I am always here anytime you need anything... friendly chat, angry vent or anything :)

[Ana B.]

Thank you Aaron, I will keep that in mind :)