The Sharpness of this Blade

This is about a person I know who was/is a cutter

  Take this blade and slice just a bit

  The dripping blood provides a rush

  Provides an escape from the truth of life

  If I cut too deep, dreams would be crushed

  My mind drifts slowly into oblivion

  My soul rests free from the trap of my mind

  I hold my breath to slow my heart

  Escape is what I have been waiting to find

  I slit my wrist to ease my pain

  My soul is broken, cant hide the tears 

  If anyone knew they would say I’m insane

  To cut is easier than dealing with my fears

  With this blade I set myself free

  No one else will see my sins

  Shame covered up by a smile on my face

  Until the day I slip and this blade wins

Author's Note

Please review and let me know your thoughts.... and no it's not about me :)

Reviews

[Angela Sparks]

This captures the thoughts when you do it and after. Not so much the fear of slipping up with the blade but the shear pain of facing what we fear. Then to get away from the emotional pain, we create a different kind of pain in which to focus and somehow I feel as of you were able insert that all in this one poem. Very good. An amazing piece:)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Angela. I had the fear of slipping part because the person I wrote this about once told me how she accidentally went to deep or something and was scared to death she actually hurt herself. I am glad you liked it and found that it is close to the real pain shared by people :)

[Cherub]

its very surprising to think about how many people resort to physically hurting themselves to ease mental and emotional suffering. I myself have been there and its a very dark path that you quite rarely come out in tact from. It feels so freeing at the time, and it's like an addiction, once you start its so very very hard to stop. I've been clean for almost 4 months and it feels so draining to not have that outlet, even though it shouldn't have been an option in the first place. I hope everything is alright with you. Your poetry really inspires me, mostly because of the beautiful topics and how well you can make things sound so flowing while also having that rhyming element. Keep writing, and keep it real xx

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much for your kind words Kuma! I am glad you have been clean I am proud of you... some people have no idea how hard it truly is. Thanks for the review and for liking my work. I really appreciate you

[I Am Svetlana]

I know this addiction all too well, but there is always a way out. It's a dark and consuming need which those lost become dependent on. I'm done with it now, but reading such pieces as these brings back memories, reminding me how lost I was in such an open world. I've found it helps to get your emotions out onto paper instead of taking a knife to your skin. Easier said then done, of course, but one must know that such small actions affect more than just ourselves. It hurts those around us to see us in pain.

[AaronFreitas]

I'm glad you overcame that moment and found another way to release those feelings. Writing is definitely a great way to get a lot of emotions out... I mean thats exactly why I write :) Thanks for the review

[ANTO]

Im not familiar with this. I have heard of the act of cutting from poems and writings here. I can empathise with those who do it as someone who also has had harmful ways of dealing with life's problems but you really got to the crux of it and I feel you've educated me and the reader here. an illuminating write on a dark subject that doesnt get enough coverage I feel. You handled a difficult subject with care, I thought!

[AaronFreitas]

Most cutters would take a razor blade and slice lightly across their wrist... enough to break through the skin and bleed but not cut an artery. For them it's a release... I've never tried it so I wrote based off what others have told me. Yeah I would say unless you know someone who has done it or seen it... it's not something that gets much coverage. Thanks for the review ANTO!

[ANTO]

wow - God love them all
YVW Aaron :)

[W R Stowe]

Fear and envy are our worst enemies Fear will halt you in your tracks and will not even have a future dream or anything.Fear Not is God's message to us I even wrote a poem with that title check it out

[AaronFreitas]

Will definitely check that poem out.... thanks for the review!

[W R Stowe]

Your welcome Aaron anytime

[Raja Anjana Kothapalli]

It is good to know that it's not about you! The poem was heartfelt and deep. I have enjoyed reading it. Thanks for sharing.
-Anjana

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Anjana... I really wanted to capture the truth and darkness in cutting. I am glad you enjoyed it :)

[Raja Anjana Kothapalli]

You're Welcome! :)

[Roshan Nair]

Aaron this piece is definitely a powerful one, there's depths of empathy there that you could've reached only by immersing yourself mentally into the characters frame of mind, its a mighty tough task.. great write my friend. cheers!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Roshan! It is somewhat difficult to write about because anyone that has or does cut doesn't want to see those truths put out there. Thanks for the review!

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Wow..
This piece hit a little to close to home for me.
Not saying it wasn't good. It is.. Very truthful.
As a cutter, I would know..
Made tears come to my eyes..
You certainly got the feelings right.
Nice one.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much... it was important to get the truth in it and not just opinion.

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

You're welcome.

[AaronFreitas]

And I know this one was hard for you so a special thanks for still reading and commenting :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Thanks Aaron. & You're welcome :)

[AaronFreitas]

You make a great point althoug I would cutters are more like losing the battle not the war. Losing the battle of everyday life and happiness but not the war as they can still recover and find happiness and a good place in life :) thanks for the review

[Frozen Eyes]

Hasn't the cutter already lost the war?? Living under the illusion of escaping death isn't heroic.
Though I agree extreme pain and helplessness leads one to choose such life. *sad face*

[AaronFreitas]

I dont think they have already lost the war... maybe the battle. The battle of struggling to find ways to cope... losing the war would be the end for the meaning death.

[jonah]

how dark and secluded the emotions that lurk in this poem. I myself never try cutting before. I wonder how cutters find the humor and pleasure in what they're doing. great poem, Aaron. I think people should pay more attention to this issue since it's really harmful and complicated. also, a really powerful, painful ending.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much. It is a very dark point in life when someone resorts to cutting. Glad I have never done it but I have known and know others that do. Thanks for the review

[jonah]

yup you're welcome :) maybe a little support for them would help a little bit..