Mixed Emotions

Mixed Emotions

A Poem by AaronFreitas
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I decided to write... nothing in particular.. sometimes I like to just release whats in my mind.

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I sit alone listening to music thinking of all that I could still be.  Yet memories of all that I lost still haunt me. Eventually I need to forgive myself and move on with life but I pour my soul into these poems and look for sympathy for the hearts that I have broken… including my own.  My heart right now still rests in my chest shattered into tiny pieces… there is nothing strong enough to hold it together.  If you can find a way to mend my broken heart please share with me but I can’t promise that I won’t break it again.  This cycle of distrust in my self is hard to comprehend and with that I sit paper and pen waiting for answers from my mind. Dysfunction seems to be the way I like to function and loneliness seems to be the way I am happiest.  Paint this smile on my face today because it is another day that God gave me to figure this life out.  How can I be happy again? How can God forgive me for my sins?  And what does it take for me to figure out this life and how to succeed and win?  I will go to sleep tonight lonesome as always; wake up tomorrow and start all over again. 

© 2015 AaronFreitas


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This is one powerful write, Aaron! Very deep and emotional. I felt my heartbreaking as well. Aww... I wish you light my friend...shall I get the rainbows and unicorns again? :) haha
Well done, Aaron. You have a beautiful heart and write beautiful, heartfelt poems.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

RomaJ

9 Years Ago

Haha now This made me smile:)
AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

haha you know what... I made home made chicken enchiladas for the first time... you missed out :) I.. read more
RomaJ

9 Years Ago

Aww sounds delicious. I shall try making that some time:) thanks Aaron



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This is a deep and heartfelt write and I have enjoyed reading it.
Thanks for sharing and have a great day!
-Anjana

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Thank you Anjana! You know I have a cousin with almost the same name as yours... her name in Anjana.. read more
Raja Anjana Kothapalli

9 Years Ago

You're Welcome! :)
This was really great, very deep..
I've been there. Seems like depression is the only way you want to live,
Trust me though, One day you'll wake up & realize that you're tired of being alone.. It may be hard to be happy, but it's worth it...
With that being said,
Great job on the piece!

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

♥ Ari Skye ♥

9 Years Ago

& I appreciate you!
AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Awww thanks friend :)
♥ Ari Skye ♥

9 Years Ago

You're very welcome!
I learned through life that happiness is in part emotion and in very big part hard work. I used to feel very lonely and heart-broken, always wondering why I keep breaking my heart (or why others do it or why I keep breaking other people's hearts). It's easier to be alone, so you don't hurt yourself or others. But anyways, through teachings of wise men and women and my supportive family and friends as well as my discovering of self and self-loving, I learned to find happiness even if temporary. And then the moments would become even longer. Eventually, I found peace, calm, and true happiness within. But of course, one can never be happy all the time. It's impossible and boring and not very enlightening or self-growing. But I accept moments of calamity with more calm and philosophical view than trying to go against them. I always pondered what you ponder in your write. I am sure many of us have. Thank you for sharing.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Thank you very much for the review. I know exactly what you mean... lately I meet people then get cl.. read more
You are truely one great writer here, your poems really go to my heart and make me think.
This poem is kind of, like "why I write?"
True, Mixed emotions do come when we write something because we have to dig in our mind and sometimes we encounter deep memories in that path...
Beautiful poem, simply beautiful

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Thank you very much Lizardo! These types of poems always end up being my favorites because I know t.. read more
I ask myself these same questions everyday and each day I realize that no one has the answers. Yet I still keep asking myself to try and figure it all out. It's a vicious cycle that I know will come back each morning. I know the pain brother.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Thank you very much for the review. Sometimes for me it's just good to ramble out some feelings alt.. read more
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It is nice to vent sometimes. And you did a good job venting this out. You just need to swap your heart for a titanium one my friend. :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Lol I am trying moonskittles... If you find one on craigslist let me know so I can make the purchase.. read more
It was as though I'm reading out my mind's Psychology. Perhaps this is how most of us think.
Amazing one Aaron!

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

I am glad to know there are people out there as confused as me :) Thanks for the review Deepika I ap.. read more
This was very emotional. The end is quite lovely. Tape nor glue can mend a broken heart, what you need is gorilla glue! Maybe you're just missing a puzzle piece. Find someone strong to hold you up, and I promise that over time, you will heal. :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

Gorilla glue is over rated too haha I agree sometimes the right person can help mend a lot of broken.. read more
Cool Girl

9 Years Ago

Hahaha
You're welcome, Aaron!! :)
Well brother, for just flinging something together, you did really well.
I asked myself a lot of the same questions your asking yourself now and I honestly do
not know the answers, but I do know that we are to expect long suffering and
our main purpose in life is to serve God! I believe if we do that everything
else will fall into place, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!


Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

AaronFreitas

9 Years Ago

You make a great point James... He has helped guide me through a lot in the past 6 months... more li.. read more
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9 Years Ago

deal............ :)

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