Choices

I betrayed a guy. This is how I feel.

I realize that I've made mistakes

You've made enough to see that too

I just really wish I had the courage

To tell them all to you.

I've broken your trust, betrayed your love

Both behind your back

And if I were to tell you

Your love is what I'd lack.

Part of me just wants to scream

OUt what I have done

The other part just wants to hide

And never right my wrongs.

So here I sit, teeth clamped shut

Holding in my claim

On those words that tell the truth

On those words that take the blame.

Now the lies pollute the air

That floats above our heads

And even as you kiss me

I'm wishing I was dead.

Because you my love, aere oblivious

To all the ways that I've wronged you

And you continue to love me

And compliment me too.

YOu tell me that I'm beautiful

I want to rip out my hair

You tell me that you dream of me

And I wish I didn't care.

You tell me that my lips are soft

I wish to pumice them to shreads

Because they form around the lies

That cause all of my dread.

And if all else fails I'd like to say

That on that faithless night

You bright eyes were all I saw

As his lips were perched on mine.

His touch turned into everything

You've ever said to me.

And his voice turned into yours, m'love.

Soft and velvety.

But as the breathing slowed, so did my dream

And I was back inside that car.

And the boy who layed on top of me

Wasn't close to you by far.

In my opinion they can't compare,

To you, there's no contest

But maybe they've been sent to me

To show m you're the best.

Because you've got my words, you've got my love

And thus you've got my heart.

This love shall be a loyalty,

From which I will not part.

Reviews

[Wolfwind]

There is a lot crammed into this poem. Many themes weaving around the same basic flow of life's emotions. This piece is a bold and brave testimony to life's actions and ability to get past them the best that one can.

Great Ink!
Aaron