The Crow

This is about a boy, well a man. Who I fell deeply in love with. I call him the Crow.

In the Crow's beak I feel loved and free,
When I'm on his wings, there's nothing I need.
Without him I feel I may flee.
I know more time is what we need.
Disguised by the blush upon my face
He can never know how I feel today.
If he did, he'd run away.
And if he did I might run away.
Because without him there'd be no cause,
For me to cover up my flaws
That jealous beast would sink its claws
Deep into me there'd be no pause.
The sky grows dark, I need a light
To get me through this horrid night.
The words he says fill me with fright,
The words were short there'll be no fight.
I'll make it easy, I'll stay away,
Well maybe I'll see you for one more day.
Just one time won't soothe what I crave,
Because without you, Crow, I feel afraid.
Now for so long, I've felt so meek.
I've put up with my heart for another week
Seeing you smile, happy without me,
It hurts me Crow, it cuts me deep.
The Crow swept down, fast upon me,
Caught my heart in his massive beak,
Flew my heart high, then buried it deep.
So, now my soul just sits and weeps.
For everyday I see the Crow fly high,
My head floats down out of the sky,
To join my heart, where it lies
Deep in the dirt, with my crying eyes.
With my heart in the earth and my cry in the clouds
I feel as though I'll never be found
By someone who loves me, not just my crowd.
I need some love. I need to get out!
But how on earth can I fly away,
When his wings were my only way
To get out of this town and forget this day,
This day the Crow took me away.
Maybe someday I'll be able to stand,
All by myself with my feet in the sand,
Forgetting these days when I peered through my hands
Scared of this world and all that it has.
But for now I'll look up to the sky,
Ready for truth no more lies.
I'll shed a tear and say goodbye,
For I love the Crow, and my love he denies.

It's been days, it's been weeks.
I'll accept it now, I'll accept defeat.
The Crow didn't love her, and he didn't love me.
For his heart to love, it'd be such a feat.
With no heart in his chest I call him a flaw.
A flaw on God's Earth, mistake in his law.
I'll forget him and my long, long fall,
Because the Crow made me feel so small.
Today I know he was not for me
With his arrogant smile and no heart beat.
How could I ever think that he loved me?
I'll accept it now, I'll accept defeat.

Then the Crow and I gave it a shot,
A second chance, a chance to not
Pull on our heartstrings, pull them taut,
But now I'm sorry I ever fought,
To have you back into my life
I made the mistake, I'll pay for it in strife.
You gutted my heart with that twisted knife,
Not once, but twice Crow, thank that night,
The faithfulness had run its course with me
So I called you Crow, to come get me
To fly me high, and fly me free,
To the land of infidelity.
That's where I found that I could have,
The passion that I've never had
Between a boy and me, or me and a man,
Yet, suddenly I feel so glad.
Because here I am in the land of Truth,
I'm ready to win, I know I can't lose,
A man who wasn't mine to choose.
I care not for the Crow, I'll knot his noose.
So let this be, my last stand,
Against the Crow, against this man
Who held me feeble heart in his strong hand
And crushed it into fine red sand.
So now I'll choose the man with zeal.
The one who loves, the one who feels.
The one who knows just how to heal,
My broken heart, the man that's real.
So goodbye Crow, have a nice flight,
Outward bound into the night.
I forgive you Crow, please forgive my plight
But f**k you Crow, enjoy your life.