Because I Fell.

The conflict of loving someone not right for me, manipulating the past to fit my fantasy, and knowing I should forget him and just be on my own.

There are times when I can’t tell
if I’m falling
     up
          or down,
if I am elated
or devastated,
      or if I could care less.
Demons are whispering lies through butterflies,
And Patience
          is drifting away
                    with a wistfully sly smile.
And me?
I am kissing Opportunity
while dreaming of the Wind
and missing vacant worship
        as if we actually laid down our souls.
I am playing my game of Past Pretend.
And I am grasping at Solitude,
begging him to come closer,
even though the thought of him
               scares me to death.

Reviews

[Antonio Valentino]

Okay, now I love this place, that was one of the better poems I have ever read, seriously. Autumn, you have the gift, and you are a joy. This is something you need to know. Don't stop expressing these wonderful insights of yours. This world needs inspiration like this, and so do I.

Wonderful.
Antone

[Tara Jean Olson]

i am so intrigued by you. i will add this to my favorites, as well:)

[Angel's Lady]

And never knowing if one is frozen or burnt...I get this!
Terrific write!

[J]

Ohmygoodness, I am struck darn near without words . . . if I could've found a way to s.a.y. it ~ this would be it. Your writing is from the down and dirty, Ms Autumn, out there with raw disclosure and no apologies. I applaud you and have to say .... I am so there with you. When a piece like this speaks to me with such clarity and nodding acquaintance, I know I have found a kindred spirit.

Wonderful. ;-)

j

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Okay, maybe we did date the same guy . . . LOL. No, really, this piece speaks volumes and really touches my heart in so many deep and unspoken places. Your writing style is unique and flows perfectly. The longing, regret, and strength to move on makes this poem and poetic masterpiece.

hugs,

S

[A.K.Bruhn]

wow i could really feel that poem good job
autum's child or can i call u the daughter of the seasons lol
anyways great writeing

[darkgurl]

Very well written, this is just brillant writing, like this bunches.

[Jessi]

Beautiful, well written you have great tallent i love this one to

[Enigma]

I agree!! This IS a brilliant poetic piece.
"There are times when I can't tell if I'm falling up or down"

[Antonio Valentino]

Okay, now I can see clearly now (the rain has gone- old song).

"And me?
I am kissing Opportunity
while dreaming of the Wind"

Hey what if I told you, I was kind of windy, uh I mean, like the wind... oh forget it.
Snap!

Okay, I'm camping right here (squatters rights) until you post another poem. Dang, did you hear that? I think it was rabid wolf, or was it a squirrel, either way, a dangerous varmit in it's own right.

Oh yeah, I still love the poem.