Good-Bye

A Story by thetormented

As I walk though these woods I watch the clouds that I can see through the tree tops. I think about the current status of my life as everything is falling down around me. I can hardly breathe as I see your face in every corner I know she is now gone and can't really be here. I just shake my head and cry as all of the pains of most recent events slowly changed everything. I get down to the creek at my grandmothers house and stop and sit for awhile.

While I sit the only thing I can think of is the fact that I have to live the rest of my life without your guidance. I begin to cry slowly sinking into the cool water. Soon I feel safe and whole again even though I had just lost everything that was me. I could feel your power, your healing touch. Some how you were here with me even with being in the next life. I hold your hand and tell you I miss you and I close my eyes and you float back to the clouds with your head held high. I look down and see that my clothes are getting wet so I climb out of the creek and walk back to the house. Feeling like I was on top of the world after seeing your face one last time and being able to say “Good-bye.” I walk inside were everyone is grieving over the loss you. I go to the middle of the room and tell everyone to open their hearts to the different worlds and power and they would be able to each one tell you “ Good-bye.” with their own words.

Some time after the funeral many people would come to me one after another to be able to tell you “Good-bye.” Then finally the last person to come to me was my mother. She asked me to help open her heart to where she could express everything she felt in forms people would understand. I looked her in the eyes and said “ I will only help you if you say “Good-bye.” to your one and only demon. She began to weep and opened her heart and finally said her duos to you. Finally releasing my precious great grandmother to her finally resting place. I was finally able you close my eyes and not feel the pain of losing her. I had accepted the fact that she was gone and I was no longer hurt by that feeling anymore.

Since then I have graduated high school and start my first semester in college to get my criminal justice degree. Ever since she passed away I have made it my goal to do everything I always told her I would. I used to always tell her I will live my life helping people and never meaning to hurt anyone. So I have done so I have had a few rough patches of life that I work on everyday of my life. She always said “ Watch your attitude and hold your temper Dear.” The two thing in life I have never been able to do, but I work every day to make it through without getting mad. I made good grades in high school just because she wanted me to. I was captain of the JROTC rifle team as well as becoming one of the highest ranking as a 2^nd lieutenant. Third highest rank that we had in the class out of three schools. I think she would be proud of me now. I walk down to the creek where I last saw you every time I go to my grandmothers house. I dip my feet in the water and feel your embrace all around me. This is my safe place where I feel the most comfort. I want everyone to know that this will be where I see you last as I say “Good-bye.” as you one by one leave my life when you are ready.

Now that I have found my serenity I can walk along and see everything in all the beautiful hues. Now more then ever I want nothing more then to please you. So now I am living just the way you wanted me too. Growing into the young woman you always wanted to see me be. I close my eyes as I am slowly repeating “Good-bye Dorthy Higgins I will always love you.” I open my eyes and everything is okay. I walk to the house and have a wonderful time with the family as I sit and work on my first week of college work and writing small stories about my life and my feelings. Soon to share them with the world and show everyone the things that I do just because she made me the woman I am today.. Thank you grandma and I miss you dearly.