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Tell me, what is it like to be you?
not the old you, no, how does it feel to be what you are?
and do the things you do?
do you have reasons or are you just as broken as I am?
 No.

You were so sweet, like the best kind of chocolate
you were nice, I liked it
I hate that I fell for someone who grew to hurt me so bad
I hate how I fell for you
 Is that true?

Months on and I'm still not a-okay
I'm not the same, still,
I still cry
and it still hurts me
when, sometimes you cross my mind
 This was all you.

did you trick me?
I'm sorry I didn't see it coming
I'm sorry you couldn't love me.
 And I.

I'm still sad, are you?
 No.

Because of you
I bleed the same sick words out of my mouth
day in, day out
 Why?

You stuck on my mind for months, too long really
I guess I just slipped from yours?
maybe one day, when you see
how bad I really am
you'll get it.
 Maybe not.

So, tell me how it feels.
 Please.

Why are you not like I am?
did I deserve this?
but, why not us both?
 We were never alike enough.

But for now, please stop hurting me,
let me leave you behind, again,
I dont need you like I did before
 Stop.

I'm empty and you're still full of my apologies
but, why did they have no worth to you?
why did I have no worth to you?

Do I keep you up at night?
do you wake up at 3am, wondering how I'm doing?
wondering how I am?
bad.
 I don't know what to say.

You never did, really
but I always knew what you meant
at least, I thought I did
until then, I had no clue
that you were about to walk away.
  i love(d) you.

Author's Note

thoughts?? constructive criticism also !!