Still unfocused

A Poem by Cattleya

So many times I sat here thinking of what to write hands on the keyboard no words why should I type no matter what comes out I feel like it's not right but the thoughts and my head saying baby welcome to life so I write down my pain because my mouth won't open my fists ready to go on that first word spoken now he's clutch up tight I'm his fear now he's choking I'm a just girl with a dream that still unfocused