Here It Comes Again

(Anniversary thoughts of mum’s last night)

the build up leading to
that last night
a floral touch lamp on low light
covid restrictions in full swing
mum in the final throes of dying
her green eyes half closed
i’m crying inside
wish i could run and hide

sis and i in that room
first floor one one two
blue curtains already grieving
sis lying on the floor looking at
the shadows spooked on the ceiling
me slumped on a chair by the door

the rest rolls restless in my head
better it isn’t said
better it travels with the dead

some things don’t go away
some things sit beneath the skin
some things like to stay
to erupt when ready
like a boil about to burst
to release all that
seeping pain
here it comes again

Reviews

[JessyJacob]

Hi Chris, i have been in general but this is new with no ticket of general but in sleeper c, near the door, with all cold wind and men me alone, but all are nice not to be scared, too much baggage whole i made almpst a home here like 10 bags, whole new experience, never never land whole 42 hrs journey. Great experience see the suffering from an inch only hurts is smell that is being polluted of noce fragrant air. Its good i am alone travelibg, tbis suffering shouild go with me. Thank yoi for reading my lines.

[Soren]

A dark and sad poem that poignantly paints a picture of loss and pain. "better it isn’t said
better it travels with the dead" a wonderful line powerful and deep. I could feel this one Chris.

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you Soren so much for your kind review.

Chris

[Poetic Beauty]

Those moments in life when our loved one is slowly moving on from this plane to the next adventure…

It is crippling and numbing at the same time. Hard to describe the heartbreak and the void that creeps in.

I worked at a hospital for many years and had a similar scene when my grandmother passed when I was 20. Reliving those times is difficult and confusing.

This is well written and the last stanza says quite clearly and with a unique description that conveys how the misery and loss rise up to the surface again.

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you PB for your visit and your very understanding review. I appreciate you stopping by.

Chris

[Poetic Beauty]

You are welcome

[RefugeInRain]

A very well wrote and expressed memory, thank you for sharing. I hope your soul breaths a little easier someday. Sorry for your loss -

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you so much for your visit and your kind words.

Chris

[Tara]

December 9 and February 13 th ate my days of mourning. Those two dates changed my life and I can so relate to your pain. Very well written and so heartfelt

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you Tara for stopping by. Anniversaries can be painful. Happy Friday.

Chris

[W. Barrett Munn]

Spectacularly good, Chris. A true gem.
You should be quite proud of this exploration.

Winston

[Chris Shaw]

What a lovely review Winston. I appreciate you. Many thanks for stopping by.

Chris

[Maximus]

Extremely well written and very well presented,I like the flow of words selection which makes it more sensible and interesting to read.

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you Naximus for stopping by to read my anniversary blues. Have a lovely day.

Chris

[Thomas W Case]

Powerful use of the senses to paint the scene. Great job Chris.

[Chris Shaw]

Many thanks Thomas. Much appreciated.

Chris

[Andrew John]

Her final throes combined here with the images you choose - those curtains, for instance, not yellow or orange, but definitely blue - touch the heart. And we think also of what we call the blues. Curtains can summon so much when they're closed. Thanks, Chris.

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you Andrew for your thoughtful review. Closed curtains and so very blue. I appreciate you. read moreThank you Andrew for your thoughtful review. Closed curtains and so very blue. I appreciate you.

Chris

[Neville]

it hurts so much doesn't it Chris .. it hurts to read your pain and it hurts because I have been there too .. anniversaries eh' who would have them.

Neville

[Chris Shaw]

January is a wicked month Neville. Seems that my nearest and dearest always succumb in that month. Makes me wonder if I will too:) Now I will neva never know that:) Thank you for your understanding.

Chris

[Chris Shaw]

Thank you for such a thoughtful review. All part and parcel of our journey. There is pretty and there is pretty awful. Yes, important to write about it all. Most of us will have to deal with difficult stuff. I appreciate your thoughts.

Chris