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I wrote this, at the lowest time in my life so far. Life without my best friend. it was peices of emotion, that i sewed together bit by bit over about a month. And at the moment, the story hasn't ended, and theres possibly more pain to come, if reconsilia

It was the most confusing momentum tumbling at me.
Cascading slower than my heart beat.
The grasp I had on life,
was slipping on ice,
and only dearest angels could catch me.
Suddenly finding this force of strength within me.
Held up by none less than my creator.
The strength was enough to hold me on my toes,
but wasn't strong enough to sustain me endlessly.
For me the only hope was through time.
But The Ticking and Tocking seemed endless.
When the motion is continuing around me,
I try to walk right through like normal,
But It's truly harder without you.
I've always been scared of motion.
The idea that I won't be in the same place if I keep moving,
scared the s**t out of me.
But I kept on moving with you,
cause with a best friend at your side,
I knew you really couldn't loose everything.
But without you motion is my biggest fear,
and I don't think I can continue and conqour it.
S**t happens,
I don't have any excuses for being this deep.
But I do know that I expected you to pull me out of it.
I'm a long way from getting out,
I'm a long way from healing.
I'm a long way from being fine without you.

My emotional heart is bleeding.