Yesterday I had to make the
hard decision to put Miss Sophie down. She
was fifteen and absolutely, positively, without a doubt, hands down and bar
none the goofiest, most ridiculously silly dog I have ever had the privilege
and honor of being responsible for. She
was half Boston Terrier and half Toy Poodle with a stocky body and chest and
spindly legs. She looked as goofy as she
acted. She was smart, a good dog, but
silly as a little kid on their birthday--every day of her life. She was my mother’s dog until she was about
six months old. When my grandfather required
hospice and my mother and I cared for him until his death, she moved into my
grandparent’s home. They had no fenced
yard, but I have a third acre lot with a six foot privacy fence. She never forgot my mother, and would lose
her damn mind when my mother would come over.
She always “minded” us, but I could yell her name over and over when my
mother was there and she would literally give me that look that said “You ain’t
my real mama”.
She was not ill. She was not injured. She had a stroke on Saturday that left her
with no memory of her surroundings or us.
She paced and circled and slept.
She refused food and water. She
left us before her death.
My heart was filled with
so much doubt as to whether it was the right thing to do. She wasn’t “suffering” as we know it. However, my mother, who gave us the dog, and
my wonderful vet both assured me that her refusal of food and water was her way
of saying “I’m gone, now let me go.”
This dog blessed us, loved
us, and I am grieving her as I would any family member. My heart is broken, but my conscience is
clean about my decision. My vet, who
cried as she administered the final injection, told me that she’s never, ever
heard anyone say they wished they had waited, but has heard over and over many
times that they wish they had not waited as long as they did.
All dogs go to heaven…Miss
Sophie, your “real” Mama will see you soon.
Your pain is understood and shared. I'm so very sorry.
Posted 7 Years Ago
7 Years Ago
Thank you, Mr. Dickens. They come, they conquer, then they're gone all too soon. But realistic pet.. read moreThank you, Mr. Dickens. They come, they conquer, then they're gone all too soon. But realistic pet owners know that and giving each one the best life possible is reward enough.
Its really emotional and touching........
Life is made of small pieces and if suddenly one piece is broken, its really hard......
But at some point it will heal dear friend....
Posted 7 Years Ago
7 Years Ago
I've never had an animal that impacted (or invaded!) my home and heart like this little goofy dog di.. read moreI've never had an animal that impacted (or invaded!) my home and heart like this little goofy dog did. It was an honor to be responsible for her.
7 Years Ago
Sure, she would also be happy to met with you.....
Oh you make me cry Carol. R.I.P Miss Sophie and be young again at The Rainbow Bridge. Heaven is where all our dogs are. My heart is with you dear friend.
Posted 7 Years Ago
7 Years Ago
Thank you, Annette. It's been two days, and I'm still looking for her in the kitchen, on the bed..... read moreThank you, Annette. It's been two days, and I'm still looking for her in the kitchen, on the bed....
7 Years Ago
I know the feeling. Like a big hole in your life. Your heart physically aches for her. But not gone,.. read moreI know the feeling. Like a big hole in your life. Your heart physically aches for her. But not gone, not gone. She is with you and loves you still. She knows you did your best for her. She & I give you many hugs and send you healing. ((Xo ))Miss Sophie & Annette
I'm very cynical, jaded, just this side of bitter and the only reason I haven't crossed that line is a good man loves me. I am extremely empathetic, but seldom sympathetic. I can be a ferociously lo.. more..