Barrier.

Scanning the text,

my heart jumped into my throat,

tears clawed at my eyelids,

and my stomach was uneasy,

ready to purge, 

ready to scream,

i swear it was the worst thing

i've ever seen,

the day i found out you tried to kill yourself,

was the day i dropped to my knees,

you seemed so fine,

you seemed so happy,

why,

how,

could i be so blind?

my best friend was dying before my eyes,

and yet here i am

more homesick than ever,

trying to find a way to talk to you,

to tell you im sorry for not being there,

to tell you im sorry ive failed as a friend,

to tell you if i could
id take your pain away,

if i could id take it all i way,

i'd make you the happiest person ever,

cause i know that's what you deserve,

i wish you could see the beauty you really are,

and i fear that you wont,

and before i can tell you,

itll be too late,

i love you,

please don't go away.

Author's Note

sloppily written, just needed things off my chest