Time

Time to give in
Time to release
Time to accept
what he's decided to cease.
Bring on black roses
Bring on decay
Separation and Solitude are here now to stay.

Listen to the memories replay in your head
Wishing you could silence them, wishing you were dead.
Bitterness and Sorrow coil in your mouth
Gaping wound and tattered flesh of a heart ripped out.

And now it's time to rewind clocks
Reverse the hands of Time
Remember how it feels to be
the screwed up kid
no one paid any mind.
The messed up girl who wanted to give,
bringing love and happiness to share.
The messed up girl who wanted someone
who honestly cared.

And now she's back to square one--
Inverted and out of control
And now she's back to square one--
Wishing and begging those final words could be undone.

Oh, what tragic ending
To find all this time he's been pretending.
Cursing letting herself go--
Cursing that she allowed herself to think
that someone really loved her
Would love her to no end.

And further deep inside
Emerges the shadow of a little girl she tried to hide
Who didn't want the risk-
Of giving all and letting go
To feeling of the lovesick that inevitably turn to woe.

If only she had listened--
Instead of searching blind
If only she had stopped herself--
Then maybe she'd be fine.

But now's too late to take back
The moments past played
The embraces and promises of
never becoming disengaged.

But know now, boy, the price you paid--
the guilty burden you have laid upon yourslef.
The lovesick shrapnel of her heart
Forever jutting
Forever aching
Within your veins of love and breaking.

And now it's time for her, you say, to
put on the pretty face
she's chosen for today.
Smiles plastered with "Really, I'm okay"
but whispering in sadness
"Not really--never will be"
Churning in dismay.