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Keeping on
Keeping cool
Keeping up
When will anything
Ever be enough?

I’ve been keeping on
And staying strong
From day one
With nothing to show for it

No battles won
Or worries gone
Just one thing after the other;
A massive storm of s**t

My fuse gets shorter
Burning closer and hotter
And I only keep my cool
Behind clenched fists

Punching brick walls
Making late night phone calls
The pain of fighting it off
Is no longer worth the risks

Falling behind
I try to remind
Myself that I need to breathe

But balance and me
Will never be
More than a casual
On and off thing

Because I can’t commit
To not losing it
Without the bad days
Always overwhelming

Keep on
Keeping on
Until keeping
Is all you do

Coping skills
And cheap thrills
I collect more each night
Though I benefit from few

Because short-term distraction
Takes no long-term action
And I spend my time
Aimless without direction

I drift along
Nights short and my days long
Eyelids heavier than my heart
The desire sleep robbing all motivation

I am tired
But I am wired
I am contradictory

I am surviving
Though I feel like I’m dying
And that is my sole victory

Reviews

[Anaisa]

This brought tears to my eyes but I couldn't stop myself reading. The feeling and the emotions that this brought out in me was bittersweet but beautiful because I felt so connected to you. My favorite of yours so far. I love your writing style and the pacing. It makes it all flow so perfectly. You make me wanna experiment in your style but I know I wouldn't be able to pull it off this beautifully :) superb work.

[Lost]

I’d love to see you experiment with style! I always look forward to your writing, and I think you’re very talented; you could pull off whatever you put effort into. Thank you so much again for all of your kind words! :)

[jessicawrites]

This is such an expressive and intense poem, and made me really feel some things.

[Lost]

Thank you :)

[jessicawrites]

But this poem really makes it seem like you're going through some stuff. I just hope you're going to be okay :) I think your poem really translates emotions I can't even begin to describe and some lines hit home haha

[Lost]

I’m really lucky, and I have a lot of great support and resources in my life so don’t worry about me :) I’m glad that my writing could connect with you like that, and I’m sorry if you’re going through some similar stuff. Remember to take it one day at a time, and that nothing is forever :)