When

* im not talking about myself by the way * I got inspired by someone close to me, heres to you. Stay strong dear, you'll make it through. No rush.

I just want to know when

When I will find myself

Find my true friends

Find the "one"

Find some reasoning

 

Its not that I am a pessimist

Although, I can't say im an optimist either

Its just all of these unanswered questions

And never ending misery 

Brings me down

 

Down from my true potential

From the real me

which people have not yet seen

I dont think I have even seen that side of me either

A side that has been happy in a while

 

Is it true that my "luck" has turned?

And I am spiraling through a downward tunnell of jealousy

For someone whom knows not of what they did to me

After they left me heart broken

And swore they never would

 

Is it someones "good side"

When they talk about you behind your back

Than look at you again

With a smile that is plastic

And a cold heart to match

 

Is all of this negativity

Leading me in a direction

That God cannot bare

For, I have fallen and no one can lift me

No matter the circumstances

 

So someone come and find me

I am asking God now

To look at me and feel my confusion

And my pain and frustration

I lost a battle that hasnt even started

 

A battle against my heart

When I let you break it

A battle with my mind

When they called me stupid

A battle with my emotions

When I let them tear me apart

 

Piece by piece

Judging me

Inch by inch

It got to me

Crack by Crack

I still feel it

and cannot let it go

 

Someone come and save me

Help me from this mess

Maybe I am a little dramatic

And maybe I am a wreck

But that is who I am now

People change from normal to crazy

Its happened before

and its happening now

to me.

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