Sincerely, Lucy

A Story by dare to fall?

I approach death with open arms while most people try and run away from it in terror. But, why run away from something that you know damn well is going to happen sooner or later? I think the way most elders think who are living in nursing homes. You know, the whole "Im sick! I want to die! GET ME OUT OF HERE AND LEAVE ME AT PEACE" bit. The odd thing about all of my "crazed" thinking, is that, I am only 13 years old. My friends all say that I have gone insane, while my mother just thinks I am suicidal; which in fact, I am neither. I just don't feel the need to keep running away from something in terror. Why not try and scare it back, play it's own game. Ofcoarse there is that 99.99% chance you wont win, but, it's worth a try.

See, what people don't understand is, when your someone like me, you don't have a choice of waiting later to fade away into the unknown. For someone like me, it is impossible to live long enough to enjoy life to it's fullest potentials. If there is a God, that is not what he wanted from me. I am only here to live, and prepare myself for a short life to die in my adolescent teenage years. I am not being negative, nor am I a pessimist.

My name is Lucy, last name, not important. I have leukimia, and shortly, I will be no more. Nothing but a soulless "dead girl" underneath the dark soils that people walk on everyday. I came here to tell my story. I came here to explain to people why I feel this way. So when I am gone for good, I hope you see my views on life for myself. But for you, stop wasting your days on something you hate to do. Be somebody. Get out there and do what you love. God gave you the chance to! Don't take it for granted. Your perfectly healthy, beautiful in every way, and are way too valuable to be broken. Live your life, and let no body stop you.

I am pulling the plug. Right when this pencil goes down, I am done. No more Kemo, no more lies, no more pain...I will live on with all of the people I love...perfectly healthy, just like them. This is my plan. This is my life now. And, for the first time in a long time, I can put a smile on my face, and know that everything will be okay. So to whomever is reading this, know that I love you and always will, and don't bother wasting tears apon me.

I am not gone,

you'll know I am always here.

Just keep a close eye open,

I will always be near.

Sincerely, Lucy.

© 2011 dare to fall?

Author's Note

sorry its long :S
and its supposed to be set up in the style of a letter
Background info: A girl suffering from leukimia, wishing no more pain apon her and her family and friends. She feels that this is what should be done, and so it shall be...