say?

cuz i 

i didn't think i would get here

you made it hard to have faith

but im

good

no im

good

and there's nothing i should say

nothing that i would

to you

cuz i

should pull some more strings here

take the fear as an opportunity

and less of something that makes me want to leave

i know that im better off without you

and i know that you'll pay for all you do

and i know how to make money

how dumb was i to think i had nothing

what degree do i need

i was raised to know what everyone wants

you can't fit what i have on a CV

cuz i

need to stop apologizing

worrying that ill hurt your feelings

worrying that you're thoughts are about me

worrying that you'll make me want to leave

i'll drop out after this summer i know it

i'll stop having to make these expenses

i'll gain back all that weight that i wanted

i'll become another potsmoker

i'll show you that im my mother's daughter

and my father will be nowhere in sight