cannibalism

my biggest gripe with
having been abused
is my engrained desire
to have my body as communion
as sacrifice if it means
the fire in my stomach that keeps burning me
will extinguish
ever, ever, ever

'it is eating me'
i tell you
once again you don't care
take a piece of my skull and eat it
for what else has it been there
if you filled my brain with lighter fluid,
would it wash away?
would it go away?
light it to make sure

take a hammer and chisel
to my weak, hard head
take a piece of what is left
please use it, please use it
like it's worth being used

Reviews

[Chris]

I don't think you are alone in this "feeling" you're describing. Many go out of their way to teach shame and worthlessness to their victims.