11/23 Talking to myself

Talking to yourself is good for your mental health so I'm gonna do that.

Girly you know what needs to be done 

you just are afraid that the people you cant stand will... 

look at you? 

I understand it feels suffocating and paralyzing 

and a matter of nervous system instead of choice, 

but I don't think you're not good enough to go through the discomfort. 

The comfort you feel is indebted to the people granting it to you. 

How sick would it make you feel to be indebted to THOSE people? 

Ew. 

Who says they grant s**t in the first place anyway? Don't you get to grant people things? 

Will you do what you will do?

Or do I have some control over it?

I want to, I hope so, but it would be freeing to not have control.

It's not about if I'm free, though.

It's not about if I'm good, though.

It's not about if the radicals like me or are mad at me.

It's about more than me, how quickly I'm forgetting.

Reviews

[Arundass TP]

Beautiful poem. Enjoyed reading