Reason: Create Confusion, Don't Eliminate It

reading

i hope to do it for as many hours a day as mutes me

as sinks me into a pit of not there, not here

not anywhere

how to go mad without losing your mind by la marr jurelle bruce

indicates and induces that there's freedom to be had

free will to be simulated

i still wish to be as a child

eating sweets walking home from the shop

as many hours a day as mutes me

as muted as the mouth of the quiet child that i'd be

sinking into a pit of who cares, she's not there

as free as a child.

anger bubbling up from just above my diaphragm

i breath it out as if i could transmit it

i feel it in my breath like it's contagious

i taste it in my mouth just like a sentance

i feel the shape around my teeth, along my gums

i know the only way i could get it to go away

lose my mind because i never went mad

lose my head because i never screamed at you

because i never hit you

because i still submit to.

i still wish to be as a child

eating sweets walking home from the shop

but you would still talk s**t to me

the pain would never stop

i try to write the feeling away 

i try to write the feeling away

i try to find clarity in s**t that doesn't make sense by design

i try to find clarity in s**t that doesn't make sense by design.