Letter

The speaker writes a letter to a "friend" who is toxic and absorbed in their phone to express their frustration.

I wrote you a letter to tell you how I feel I don't know if you'll read it but what I wrote is real I'm so afraid to send it I'm think it means we're ending I'm afraid it means we're falling apart and something about that breaks my heart no matter how toxic we've become I can't convince myself that we're done Last night when we talked your mind was somewhere else you said that you'd be there for me but you were wrapped up in the screen and it makes me wanna scream how can you say you would be here when you're focused on that fantasy this is reality this is where I am I need you now not later through a text, can't you talk to me first, I can't wait until the next time this might be the last time in a long time that we even have this time but I went home with so many things left unsaid because every time you opened up your phone you were lost in the pixels and pictures and I couldn't bring you back home where your mailbox waits, with my snail mailed letter and the truth of how I feel I wrote you a letter to tell you how I feel I don't know if you'll read it but what I wrote is real I'm so afraid to send it I'm think it means we're ending I'm afraid it means we're falling apart and something about that breaks my heart no matter how toxic we've become I can't convince myself that we're done Leave your phone off, stop texting at midnight why can't you stay here and live in a real life I hide your phone in my bag and you steal it right back saying your friends are online, you haven't talked in a while what about me do I not count? am I not good enough because I'm here and not behind my screen? your definition of "friend" makes me wanna scream you say they support you so do I, right? that's the only reason you call me but you've never supported me the same way actions always shout and words only whisper you show me that you don't care every day is it because I'm old-fashioned? writing you a letter, seal my envelope with tears these are all the things that I've tried to say to you for years I wrote you a letter to tell you how I feel I don't know if you'll read it but what I wrote is real I'm so afraid to send it I think it means we're ending I'm afraid it means we're falling apart and something about that breaks my heart no matter how toxic we've become I can't convince myself that we're done

Author's Note

I didn't let myself go back to edit on purpose. The lack of rhyme scheme and rhythm frustrates me - does it frustrate anyone else?