Sleepless thoughts

I couldn't sleep at all last night, not a wink of strained solitude, no moments of quiet within my soul. My brain endlessly slipping from subject to daunting subject.

Falling swiftly away from a grim reality and stumbling across longing fantasies.

Still awake, facing all with a heartless logic , a contempt grin positioned not for pleasure but for safety. To drown out the voices, the sounds, the worries.

I cannot sleep, for i cannot dream, cannot loose control, that fragile grip on logic keeping the lies safe.

Im ok, im always ok behind the veil of sleepless nights and tearful pillows.