Just a fling

..And yeah.. its like some kinda terrifying dream

There's this sickening feeling inside me now, whenever i hear the words of fondness whispered in my ears. And right now im afraid because obviously the love for him wont just fade it wont go away , love's not like that it dosent stop or just cease to exist. Its always there you just learn to live without them to cope. But im more scared because from loving him it hurt me destroyed me and tore me to pieces.

And now you've come along, another boy with another game to play and only ive been roped in to follow you just like i did him. And you , you wrap me round your fingers and you twist and manipulate me. I see so much of him in you and it terrifies me, i dont want to get close even though your letting me kno before. Your telling me straight out its just a fling a little game of sex and playing around it wont mean anything. And yet im still tempted still following still catching hold of your whispered words that travel toward me on the wind. Over and over you spin round my head and i cant be sure, i cant be sure of your heartless emotion, or maybe its gentle sincere and caring. How can i possibly kno, its like the past haunts me and your some kinda of ghost. But the thing is ive fallen for you i dont love you , i haven't fallen in love with you but i have fallen for you and there's nothing i can do to get rid of that, and i think , i think you kno that i think thats why you asked. Because you kno i cant say no and you'll just break me into shattered glass trample me beneath your feet.

I hate it i hate it , oh the woe of having a heart of feeling like, of feeling love of falling apart. of not knowing where to place my feet. To run away would be a blessing but i turn back and i look at you, with eyes wet with tears because i cant , i cant not want to be with you. And its ok because were there aren't we in some sort of twisted mode, in a fling that means nothing where you can eventually just fling me away when you find someone else you'd rather stay with. Its hell not knowing what your thinking.

There's something wrong with me, your letting me kno letting me kno your going to hurt me and im still coming, im still weaving myself toward you letting myself connect. Even though i kno im just gonna become an emotional wreck as you tear your way through me looking back only to smile and laugh as a tumble at your feet.

Reviews

[Jibey]

A pained cry from one who knows she will be shattered yet cannot avoid the allure of the smashing guy...Vividly written with your usual tumbling style

[Daz3626]

Powerful stuff... You know all the answers but you've written in questions.

I like the way you say "fallen"... It's true, you can still fall for people even if it's not in love... But I run when I know this is about to happen... I keep pain a good hundred feet away.

But yeah, love it. Is this part of the autobiography?

[ChristianM]

Truly beautiful portrayal of love twisting one's heart for the wrong people. I've been there before.
Great Job

[Jacqueline]

Aww, this is so adorable but a little sad. =(
I'm not sure if this is how people write reviews on this website (I joined today, so please forgive me for any mistakes!) but I really like this so far.
Keep up the good work!

[Manda]

wow this was awesome! there were a few grammatical errors, but i have a feeling you did that on purpose. i think you need to add some punctuation, take out some words, and fix some words.... i did really like this besides for those minor mistakes. i really felt the emotion in this piece pouring out. i felt as though i was this person going through this exact thing. i have too, just so much as of this moment. well done!

[Jack Frost]

love it love it!