I wonder

I wonder of you think of me, if for aslong as a split second my image or voice or any part of me flashes innocently across your mind. I wonder if like me , tiny insignificant little bits of our conversations past, find ways to flicker through your mind and etch themselves onto your thought pattern for no apparnt reason at all, and if for ever the smallest moment of time they make you miss me, and what we had. I suppose its more hoping than anything that all this happens to you to, that im not the only one, because you swim into my mind all the time , while im sitting in silence on the train rides home, while im reading, while writing , while im sitting on my own. Infact i wonder if you think of me at all, if you still even care , if like me sometimes your just sitting there at home, and you phone will buzz dully on the side. And you'll reach for a moment in silent hope that mabye its me just calling to say hello, to ask how you are or just to have a joke.  I sit at home alot with that temptation the phone in my hand, but intellegnt stopping me dialing the number. I wonder if you to sit there and resist , or if its just me with my phone in  my hand. Am i the first person you cheak for online, when you sign onto msn?, am in your favorites just like you are in mine. Do you do what i do and hover over my facebook, liking commenting simply for conversationtal perpouses?. And if now this really really is just a big giant hope, that sadly already i feel i kno the answer to , but i do i really do wonder if somewhere deep down inside your heart it still wants me, i wonder or hope what ever you call it if somewhere just somewhere real deep inside , just like me your still inlove with me. And that when you dream , you dream of me behind your closed eyes.

x

Reviews

[Pancole's Jelly Bean]

wow, that's what I have always been wondering too. I really hope I can stop wondering about it some day. I don't know how it would be if twenty years later, you still wonder about it at times. That would be heartbreaking because if nothing is gonna change to how it was before, is it worth us wondering about them?

*hugs*

Jess xx

[Dahveed]

I enjoyed this piece. You put a lot of thought into it - allowing one to use their imagination. keep up the writing.

[Jibey]

I wonder... indeed