The end - i love you

just ... thoughts

Its funny how  i hide the way i feel about you. Back in the days we where together i told you how much i loved you and you told me you loved me back, oh how i wish you meant it instead of those steady lies you decived me with. Its funny i love you so much and yet you feel nothing but possible friendship toward me and even that i sense doubt it. And lets be hoenst now with myself i dont think i can take it loving you i mean because its all just a game to you, you could have anyone you wanted and you kno it, you kno it so well where as dont want anyone but you.

You tell me you understand and all but you never really do not honestly you never really kno how i feel about you now, you said it would fade in time that id move on find someone knew but i didnt did i. Not at all im still love sick im still crying at night and cuddling onto the air like you'll just appear. Its draning me and everytime you kiss her infront of me cant you see what you rdoing to me. I guess not why should you care. i should just fade away and let you get on with life without me.

Life without me for everyone its probelry better that way. Because i cant do it anymore the alchol no longer buries the pain it just makes me aware that i have to tell you but i cant because im so scared im not even sure what of im just scared that you wont understand, that you'll hate me turn me away and what not. You say i get upset so easily, but mabye its just you that has the power to make me cry with such simple words. Dont you get that i crave your approval, your words mean the world to me, when you insult me even when your joking i take it to mean what you say because i love you so much and i dont kno what to do about it now.

I see only one way to stop loving you, one escape and one way out the only way to stop loving you is to stop my heart beating. To stop it calling your name to stop the tears in my eyes. Theres only one way and all it takes is never waking up , never facing the truth and never looking at you again. One pill i suppose one more than im meant to take and as i sit here now holding it in my hands i wonder would anyone really care if i just up and left wud anyone think twice about the love sick girl who's eyes had room only for you.

No .. no they wudent not really, they'd care for a week but they'd soon forget they ever knew me , just like you forget you ever loved me.

Im sorry but i cant do it anymore. lets be honest i never could do it from the start , and now watching you from afar i realise ill never be able to do it. So its over now, ill lay here for a while and then my eyes will close , the wont open again i will be peaceful and you'll never kno , never kno why i did it, you'll never kno how i feel perhaps its better that way because i love you, and thats all you need to kno , that i love you.

So let me lay here amongst my tears and my pain an empty container next to me containing my chosen poison let me take them all teh whole pot. And never ever will i think again. Let my eyes closed let it once and for really be the end of all of this. The end of my love for you , the end of an everlasting love torn from inside my being.

Im sorry its over.. the end.. i love you

Reviews

[Flo_writer]

You can feel a lover's need for affections here. It's filled to the brim of a lover's cup with unreturned love and you can't help but to sympathize. It's sad when you feel that much for another person and it isn't returned. Sadness driven and madness bound. A well written story of one lovers unreturned passion. Also you should give this a read over, you have a lot of grammar errors you should fix so the reader won't have to guess at what your saying

[Jibey]

You let the raw emotion flow so well, at the same tiume as sustaining a coherent argument through the writing. The piece describes with great effect the disappointment of rejeftion and the gnawing pain of unrequited love... and the imagined end comes as a sad but understandable drama... You write it as it is... with all its depth of feeling.