caged by truth

Here it is , the anger that you've spent years learning to control. Just beneath the surface bubbling away like a volcano seconds before it erupts. Who is anyone to lay down these expectations , who is anyone to hurt someone i care about. This whole world, this whole f*****g race all of it. I could willingly burn it all to the f*****g ground and laugh as the last few breathes of air leave there tainted lungs.

Detestable, idiotic creatures...human beings lacking in any sign of humanity what so ever. I am done with this, I could not care less if i have to make it alone. For at least alone there is no chance of being stabbed in the back. Alone there is no worry of the blade twisting and turning between your shoulder blades. There is noone to depend on, not here, not anywhere. Everyone is too busy worrying about what everyone else is doing, too busy making judgements on each others motives and movements.

I will be driven as insane as they believe I am, isolated merely by there need to label everything unknown as being negative or in need of correcting. I thought perhaps that the people around me where more evolved than I gave credit for, and that is my own mistake. But i see the truth now i see that the only way forward is truly to be alone either that or be labelled insane and thrown to the dogs as another scrap of defective meat. The sad fact is that isolation drives you crazy the need to be understood , to be heard and to be accepted. This life is full of lies like that, lies of trust and friendship, even those you truly believe meant no harm find a way to hurt you. Not that I mind im made of much stronger stuff, everything is a lesson. 

And the learning objective, to realise that the only person you can truly trust to engage in any truth with is yourself, the rest of the world will not be ready, the rest of the world will merely lock you away. Silence, even through the pain and the heartbreak. I will not speak another word of my distress, you wouldn't understand it anyway.