The black dog is waiting, Waiting outside my door To lead me down dark Corridors of my mind Past stations in the wall; Rope, razor, pill and gun.
Black velvet shrouds drape Pressing walls, enclosing; lulling Me like a Nick Drake song. Glass obsidian floors cover Unfathomable twisting rivers of Dark thoughts, glimmering through The faint defenses I have cobbled.
He takes me down un-cheerful. Leaden purpose darks out the Light. Pulls the covers over, Willing me to sleep and dream Foreboding ways to end the pain. To stop at stations in the wall and Choose respite from it all.
I used to fear the visits; tried Everything to bar the door. All the frenzy, all the fear, Empowered him to enter and Lead me down dark corridors, Past stations in the wall, Rope, razor, pill and gun.
Alas, I no longer fear him. He cannot tie the knot or Slice the vein, drug me to oblivion, Put gun to head, without my hand. He will get bored and disappear. Knowing this and not to fear the Bite, has tamed his power over me.
He will be waiting, always waiting For me to let him in and like an old Familiar friend, he will walk me Down dark corridors again, still Stopping at the stations, knowing I no longer consider these choices as Salvation. He will leave me to the light.
What a familiar journey you have just taken me on Jack, quite literally a literary de ja vu & just or the record, I've been there too. You cracked it with this one, well done.
All Good Things, Neville
Posted 11 Years Ago
11 Years Ago
Thank you very much Neville and I feel that I must apologize to you for not responding quicker but t.. read moreThank you very much Neville and I feel that I must apologize to you for not responding quicker but the bloody thing is visiting at the moment and It's such an effort just to log on to my computer this week...I promise I will visit when the gloom has lifted.
You call the Dog your familiar friend - and as our alter ego that`s exactly what he is. Like any unwelcome companion, we only recognise and tolerate their presence if they don`t invade our space. You recognise your Dog and lock him up very well in your piece. Well done P.
Posted 11 Years Ago
11 Years Ago
Thank you Peter. The familiar friend sort of comes out of the concept, what you resist persists. If .. read moreThank you Peter. The familiar friend sort of comes out of the concept, what you resist persists. If you accept your black dog and allow it to enter,it will leave sooner.
Not knowing who "He' is(Dog) ?.. or who Nick Drake is .. .. or what "stations" are .. But this seems like "depression" speaking ... Been there ... this is an apt description ..
Jazzy :)
Posted 11 Years Ago
11 Years Ago
Thank you for the review. The Black Dog was the name Winston Churchill gave to his depression and Ni.. read moreThank you for the review. The Black Dog was the name Winston Churchill gave to his depression and Nick Drake was an English singer/songwriter that suffered from depression and died from an overdose of anti-depressents when he was 26. No one knows if it was deliberate or an accident.
As for the stations, I tried to reference them to the staions of the cross in a Catholic church. The staions in this case are icons to suicide.
I like this effort. It captures so poignantly the mood, the depression, and its omnipresent character. Never goes away, lurking always. This is nicely done--and I love the imagery and references in the poem. I'd like to see more of your poems!
Posted 11 Years Ago
11 Years Ago
Thank you very much and your welcome to read any or all if you like.
Amazing prose so forceful and yet disturbing until the last stanza. I always try to read the first posted writes on this site. I think they say a lot about the author. I'm also gald you posted the explanation as I sometimes get lost in the words.......
Posted 11 Years Ago
11 Years Ago
Thank you for the review and the kind comments. I'm still trying to feel my way around this site, I'.. read moreThank you for the review and the kind comments. I'm still trying to feel my way around this site, I'll pop by for a visit soon.
Thank you for the review. The Black Dog was the name Winston Churchill gave to his depression and Nick Drake was an English singer/songwriter that suffered from depression and died from an overdose of anti-depressents when he was 26. No one knows if it was deliberate or an accident.
I love they images that are conjured up purely by the phrase 'black dog, it just seems to be the perfect way to encapsulate the spirit of death calling and pulling, like it's own forcefield. A hopeful and positive ending to what, after the depth of the first stanza, felt like the final walk.
I am invisible and I am invisible because that is what I set out to be, even though for as far back as I can remember I dreamt of being a famous writer. I never fulfilled that dream out of fear. The q.. more..