Beware the Ties of WarA Poem by Cloud ComposerA fine autumn it
was When duty called
to brains and brawn. Pride encouraged
me to stain my palm With an admiral
blue ink That I signed my
life vain. I did not act as
the cowards did: Disable himself or
feign hopeless illness. No, I wished not to
run In a nature so
faint For I never felt
the need to feel afraid. When the final
decision was made, The women shook, Their tears
splattered Under the roof, But my father felt
proud to give me his name. I was to honour
the country, my family By fulfilling my
duties - The requirements
to becoming a war hero; I felt content
with such a destiny. Immediately, Drowned in mud and
sweat, The choking smell
of gunpowder filled the air From distance’s
haze. The warm blood of
friend and foe Gathered into my
blue-stained palms day by day Until it spilled
and merged with the polluted rain. My forefathers had
told stories Of great honour
and victory, But none had
warned me Of demons lurking
in reflections, in shadows; No one told me the
battlefield was a dull Christmas scene. Much too soon, The smells of
vermin penetrated even my mind While nightly
whispers filled my thoughts With fearful but
truthful lies. In the end, the
camp left me behind With one less leg
and one less head. The comrades who
merely survived, But not lived, Returned My empty body. They called me a
warrior, But if my loved
ones heard from our enemies,
I
would have been called a monster (.)
If I was the only
one standing, But all sides the
kids surrounding Wear their expressions
in similar distaste Just as I. So easy it is to
put on a smile, Such that it decorates
our many lies In front of the
stupid enemy While we lead them
to our base, Then off they go
exploding. This For our mamas and
papas who flew into the sky, For our brothers and
sisters who failed to survive. Bitter juice and
stale crackers on a small tin plate Are enough to
vitalize our resolves each day. The battlefield
becomes our playground, And so we play
tragedies in every round. At the end of the
day, The sunset melts
into the land, And we once more
understand; We’re not at home
safe and sound Because we’re pups
in collars Chained and bound By things adults
call responsibility, Whereas we call it
rage. The tunes of our
childhood are faint in the spring Breeze that
reminds us of a once innocent view When apple pies
were once shared in the neighbourhood,
Those
times no one saw reason to cry (.)
Were times I spent
denying fright, But times of
horror stretched out my sighs, So I took myself
to the winter outside. Allowing the frost
to bite my skin, Only then I could
longer feel alive. Mundane chores
were put behind war; Wives with
children ushered them behind doors. It became harder
to remember his appearance, His scent, his
touch, His everything
that made me willingly insane. Our embraces were
too short; Our positions too
far. Time faded his
presence Into the corners
of our hearth. I had veiled my
head until recent days; Except my groom
vanished into the waves. That liar a lover
promised eternity, And yet he volunteered
to leave so quickly Without a thought
about his wife's safety. How very fortunate
I did believe When my brother by
law offered support, But those words
were only candy coated; Soon the debt was
more than I could afford. He visited me
during nights When he desired a
fancy w***e. I couldn't stop
him; He was the blood
of whom I adore, So I shut my eyes, Muted my heart, And into my love
his trace I did distort. Every day I
scrubbed my sins away, And yet,
They
would always come back in greater pain (.)
As if suffering
underneath the scorching sun Wasn’t already
enough. Men in uniform
carried our baby Back into our
arms, But he was broken And torn on the
inside. With those burns
on his face, He’ll never have a
wife, But that wasn’t
our greatest worry Because of his
nights That made us also
despise The traumas which
blinded his light. Our poor child we
worked hard to raise Has fallen too
instantly By the pull of
dignity. The neighbours
say, “At least he’s
alive,” But how can that
corpse be alright? Even in comfort of
his bed, He feels the
pressure Of pity and
sympathy for he’s no longer worthy. With our rusty
spines and shaky knees, We don’t have long Until we join the
death party. Who will then care
for our damaged son daily?
Even
we can’t maintain eternal composure. End. © 2016 Cloud Composer |
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