My Heart Bleeds

This is to my ex, who only breaks me but I continue to let him in with outstretched arms and gritted teeth.

Dripping down into the empty cracks of my troubled mind

Unable to differentiate what is true love and what is passion

My soul is worn out and out of fashion

I want you and I cannot have you, when I did, it was a lie and left me with no satisfaction

I hope to see out what is meant to be for us

But I am afraid

Just like worn metal it will soon rust, leaving nothing but dust

I expect nothing less than disappointment but crave to be what you need

My heart bleeds, but when done it is left with nothing underneath

No coat to warm my soul

Instead. leaving a gaping hole

I wish to fill it

But your mind is so prying and only leaves me feeling like I am dying

I have no answers

Only wish to know when I await your beck and call

It hurts so badly but I cannot call randomly

It all remains a secret and I hate having to keep it

Instead, why not be free?

To be that would only just leave so much regret

I hope you see that you have brought the death of me

With a broken heart that bleeds

To see only what you really mean to me