The Terrible Me

For those who want to stay away from profane speech, don't read

How can I continue to do this?
I'm causing so much pain
I'm f*****g terrible, but somehow others can't see it
They're blind to whats real, and create a false image of me in their mind
They think I'm so wonderful, while the true me they leave behind
I cause immense pain in others
A truth I can't deny
I have to feel pain in return
As a way for me to survive
I want to leave this world of hate
And what I contribute to this worthless place
Sure, there is some things to live for
But when pain is brought on others
There is nothing I'd rather do than close life's door
Why can't my personality be seen
With the eyes clouded in a veil of green
The ones that see everything as perfect
And me as a person that is worth it
I'm worth nothing, something people don't see
Im f*****g terrible, but people won't believe
The scars that mar my body are truth to this tale
About my coping mechanisms and the terribleness it entails
When they can't see the truth and are clouded with lies
It makes me want to scream what others deny- I'm f*****g terrible and I want the world to see
The reality of my life, which is the terrible me.