Going Through Changes

This is what i went through at the age of 12. Its all true, i broke down inside and out. That's when i turned to music, i shut down completely. My dad ended up in hospital and nearly died.

Lately i'm feeling weak, 

Struggling to think net alone even f****n speak,

I've hit my peak,

I've lost the streak,

I'm past that week, of caring,

i sit in my room with the music blaring, Out loud,

Otherwise i'm stuck in this cloud,

Of pain and sorrows,

I mean it..I'm not gonna barrow another tomorrow,

The day has come to stand up for whats happened,

I no longer take blame for those actions and reactions,

the pain that's be caused,

Not through my body but through yours,

You ended up in the hospital with pipes here pipes there,

Pipes f*****g everywhere,

From your alcahol addiction,

Your hell bent on causing a coefficient of friction,

Between the family,

We are already unbalanced with out you causing more stress to humanity,

I was 12 when i went through this,

I hate to reminisce but this takes the piss,

There was no other way to explain it,

I was crying, and you was focusing on what spirits to have you vodka with it,

I'm Sorry Dad, I wont ever be the perfect son,

But if you could see the damage this has done,

You would stick by me and call me your number ONE!

Author's Note

I actually cried when i wrote this, it comes deeply from the heart, I wish i could explain more about it, it doesn't seem to bad, but i couldn't wish it up on anyone in the earth. So please leave a comment.. thanks!

Reviews

[Red Brick Keshner]

It's crazy raw and powerful. Amazing still that you lived through it to walk another day. Those are tears of strength, words that testify of a life loved in spite of circumstances. tfs👍

[Dr Ayaz chandio]

deeply touching,Very nicely written..full of emotional attachment..liked this very much