Final goodbye

"I-I-I'm sorry" I shakily said. 

The rain's pouring down hard but we hardly make a move. I'm shaking from head to toe. I can't stop myself from crying. The tears just keep on falling. Finally, I heard him speak.

"Is this really it? Are you sure about this?" he said. 

Am I sure? I don't know. All I know is that this is the easiest way for both of us. I bowed my head. 

I just couldn't bear to look into his eyes. I might change my mind. But I can't. It hurts. This is too painful.

"Yes. I am sure." I whispered.

I tried to look at his face. Is he sad? Is he mad? Oh god. What have I done? I saw him shaking trying to keep his tears from falling. I heard him breathe deeply. Slowly, he lifts his head. I saw the tears that were forming from his eyes.  

He blinked twice and I watch as his face become emotionless. 

"So this is it huh? After all that we've been through." he said. 

After all that we've been through, this is how i repay him. I thought. But I can't take it back. I already made my decision. I know I made that decision all by myself but... This is the best for us. I just can't think of any other way. 

"I'm really sorry. You know I loved you-" I started. But he interrupted me. 

"But It's not enough? If you really loved me then why do this?" 

I ask myself the same thing. Oh please. Don't make it too hard for me. It's hard enough that I'm the one saying goodbye. If only I could stop time and prevent this thing from happening. I sighed. You can do this! You can do this! I tell myself. Okay here goes nothing.

"I loved you...But I'm already inlove with someone else" I lied.

I saw his face turn from emotionless to cold. I'm sorry I really am. I love you so much but I have to do this. You have to let me go. It would be easier. Really. 

"Okay. I get it now. Have a good life." he quietly said. 

And by that, he turned around and walk away. I watched him go until I could no longer see him. My love, Please forgive me. I silently prayed. I remained frozen and let the rain wash my tears away. I cried my heart out until I couldn't cry no more. I cried for my lost dreams, my forced farewell, and my lost love. I know it's painful but its for the best. I just couldn't let him grieve for my death. I love him too much to put him through all that suffering. I know that he's hurting now but Its easier this way. I couldn't let him watch me die. I hope he forgives me. I hope he forgets about me. I hope he moves on. I stared at the place where he walked away. I love you. Please forgive me. I whispered. I wiped my tears and prepared myself to go to the hospital. I took a deep breath and braced myself for the final goodbye. 

Author's Note

It still needs a lot of work i know. Stories aren't really my thing. But I sure hope, its good enough. haha

Reviews

[Danielle Bernard]

Its really sad, and emotionally impactful. So two thumbs up from me, and I thought you did a wonderful job! :D

[Carissa Marie]

Thank you so much. Glad you liked it. :)

[Dhaye]

I am really touched. Thanks for a wonderful story like this.

[Carissa Marie]

Thank you po. :)

[A. H. Pinley]

I took a deep breath and braced myself for the final goodbye (farewell). Not a bad story. Story writing is a fun avenue to venture on. Keep at it.

[Carissa Marie]

Thanks for the review. :)

[Christine Bautista]

Very touching. I like it.