HELP ME

I’m constantly floating in a sea of my emotions and it’s rising at a steady pace, it’s going to pull me under, and it’s going to torture me to the point where I give up trying to hold my breath and I’m just going to inhale all of the water and just end the pain. I have full control over my life and I’m just realizing it. I can end it if I want to. Who’s going to stop me? No one, because they don’t have control over me. I can do this. I can get up. go into the bathroom, shut the door and just start swallowing pills. Or just cut so deep that I bleed to death. No one’s stopping. My life is in my own hands. I can do this if I really want to. I can end it.

I can actually do this if I want to. I can’t be stopped.

I might do this. If it’s going to stop the pain, I want it. I really do.

Do I still mean something if I take my own life?

No. I’ll be called an attention w***e if it’s unsuccessful. Or even if it is successful.

I’M NOT OKAY.