little did they know

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Each time I have an alone time with myself I overthink my achievements, the accomplishments that I have done so far, all the situations I have dug my way through them, all the people who are not what I always though are, and mainly all the unfortunate events that have made me what am I today. I hate how fragile I have became, how so self-judgmental I become between my self & I, and how so self piteous over the last few years I have become. I have grown a habit of self criticizing over the years, with have been absorbing some of my dreams and goals, draining the will I always have toward the things I always wanted. yet, people would never hesitate to reach me out and say how admired they are with how well brought together I am, how I'm so dedicated to all the things I wanted, how I always can adapt easily to whatever situations life has thrown on. 

Little did they know. 

Nothing shall they know.

Little did they know about how close I was to give up. 

Little did they know about how many time people have discouraged me.

Little did they know about how words can hurt so deep.

Little did they know about how it feels to be disappointed by who you never expected to do so.

Little did they know about how it was so hard to fight against traditions and culture.

Little did they know about how difficult it is between two critical things.

Little did they know about how does it feel to know that the only one that will stand for you is your own self.

Little did they know about how sleepless nights can drain all the purpose you got. 

Little did they know about how to stand up against authority to demand your rights.

 

Little did they know about how sarcastic people can get when you conflict their opinions.

 

Little did they know about how to act stupid and ignorance when you understand everything.

 

Little did they know about how patient can slowly eat you from the inside. 

 

Little did they know about how to successfully act as you're strong when you're not.

 

Little did they know about how to smile when you got the urge to weep. 

Little did they know about how to swallow your pride. 

Little did they know about how to accept people thinking you're strong when you need help. 

Little did they know about how no one will ask about how you feel when you show no reaction. 

Little did they know.

Nothing shall they know.

Reviews

[Dani The Unreviewed]

And they never know. The one thing we all forget, is that we all have bad times , and some people don't look at how far you really went, and so they can't see. they remain ignorant...
hehehe, been there, and i did give up, too many goddamn times...so i decided, not to look back, ever again. nicely written.

[Siobhan]

Negative thoughts and feelings only bring negative situations to find yourself involved with. Sometimes it is hard to remain so positive and upbeat when things and people bring you such disappointment. Just continue being the goodness you wish to see on the outside world and great things will happen. Have trust and faith that things can and will get better. Thoroughly enjoyed this read.
A big thumbs up from me.

[Inject Positivity]

So wonderful.....True words in a strong poem......Well done frnd.....

[Serenity Faith]

Truth with a capital T. No one knows what goes on in our minds. We only show people what we want them to see. And when we do want them to know, "nothing shall they know." People can be so oblivious to the people around them. At some point in everyone's life we want to give up on something. No one has walked the same path as you, they may have walked similar parts of it, but no one is you, or feels, or thinks as you do. Great job Darlin.