i'll wait here for you

how i felt the day of my husbands first deployment

*****forgive my spelling this is a rough draft****

 

 

I look into your eyes

i dare not let go of your hand

your warmth so close

your kiss so sweet

please don't leave

this must be some mistake.

I cry

you try not to

you walk away from me

and i watch you

is this the last time i get to hold you.

to hear your voice

to show you i can't live without you

my whole body screams to run after you

but i have to be strong.

you climb the steps and find a seat

this white giant holds my life

my soul

i hate this bus

i hate this day!

this must be some mistake

through the window we hold each others gaze.

my fear

my sorrow

my heart ache

flows down my face.

everything in me fights not to break down

they drive away and my body screams

i feel so helpless

so lost

please don't leave me

machanically i get behind the wheel.

i drive the road from uncouis memory.

i wake up in my bed,

thinking it was all a dream

but you are not there.

i fall into the pain.

don't wake me

the fear is to much to hang on to.

i wait for that first call

let me know your safe.

come home soon.