Despicable You

just a poem to myself

I see you staring through the window
Forehead pressed against the glass
In hopes that things will soon get better
Or that this life will quickly pass

You know of nothing but how to hurt
You only see the endless rain
You may be sorry for your mistakes
But there's no way to blot the stains

You're just not worth the extra effort
You'll never be quite good enough
You're family's gone, they've turned away
The love you crave is an empty bluff

You're blinded to the striking truth
Your plight is endless, no escape
So lay down here and stop the breathing
As dark reality takes shape

You're nothing like a butterfly
Soon to emerge from a dark cocoon
Sad to say you're just a worm
You're just an ugly, despicable you

Author's Note

Words said yesterday, or even years ago, still have affect today.

Reviews

[ashley]

This poem broke my heart.
"You're nothing like a butterfly
Soon to emerge from a dark cocoon
Sad to say you're just a worm
You're just an ugly, despicable you"
It's horrible, but sometimes when I'm lying awake late at night, I start to think this of myself... Maybe everything I thought I was supposed to be was just a lie... maybe I'm not as special as I wish I was... maybe I'll forever be the ugly duckling, grown full-fledged ugly duck, never meant to be a swan... It's an awful thought to have, and one I never let myself really ponder, because I'm terrified it's the truth. I've never met you really, but from your poems and your reviews and your messages, I can tell you without a doubt, it's a lie. You're nothing close to a worm - you're a butterfly. Maybe you don't have your wings yet, but trust me, you will. If anyone is a butterfly, it's you. Smile wide, you deserve it. :D

[Dimples87]

I can relate to the vulnerability you pour into your writing. You're honestly not alone in your thinking, sadly, because we've all had thoughts like that but I wish and pray for you as well. I can see hope you find in your writing as I've read other pieces as well. You have potential that I don't see all the time. Feel free to let your wings soar.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This poem broke my heart too...
I like it though...but it was very sad.
Nicely written and well done....
Thanks for sharing.

[Ruth]

The butterfly imagery is beautifully incorparated in this love, some people do not know that they can hold beauty inside, they choose to be the negative!
Wonderfully expressed!
Great poem
xx

[JENY]

No…each person in this world has their own worth….
Cast away…these negative thoughts…and feeling of this worthlessness….
Find out your own potentiality….
There are innumerable ways..
Search for it…
Dwell upon the positive side of your personality…you will learn to grow in optimism….

[Shalini Dinesh]

the feel of the poem was carried throughout well, and the emotions as well as the words were strong... well done..

[little lily Bride of Ch..]

oh wow this broke my heart also You're a Butterfly i Understand your pain as life was never easy some times when i was a child but i did Struggle and i got through the pain it wasn't easy we have to heal but we all heal in time we don't for get but we do heal if we don't it can tear us up Emotionally. You have to Heal that Broken Wing My Butterfly Friend we are all Butterflys we bloom into one as we near adulthood and it's truly amazing and you have shown much Bravory Strength Wisdom Knoweldg and Love and caringness and you have the Grace as she fly on the currents of the wind and fights what life throws at her Truly Never lose that You have a Amazing Spirit that knows How To soar through the good and bad Challanges of Life You're Beautiful and Strong There is Nothing we can't Do with God as our sheild our Rock to lean on Our Strong Hold. God bless Hope you haev a Amazing night my friend

[HorrorMaster]

A very good poem and sad.

[Haifa]

Powerful and sad poem !!! Great job