Chasing Angels

I thought I'd caught an angel once
I gave it everything I had
I brushed its flawless feathered wings
And tended to its every need
I made my lap a little pillow
For it to lay its weary head
But it woke up and flew away
It never did intend to stay

When I was young I lived in fairy tales
Where every monster met its fate
I knew each damsel would be rescued
From her world of bitter hate
I didn't know my case was different
Though I knew that I was strange
I thought that if I gave enough
One day my life was sure to change

As the days went on and on
I chased the angels to and fro
But every time I captured one
It flew away when it was done
No matter if I did my best
No matter if I tried so hard
They took my gifts and then they went
And all my tears on them were spent

When I was young I lived in fairy tales
Where every monster met its fate
I knew each damsel would be rescued
From her world of bitter hate
But now I know its only myth
It wasn't meant for ones like me
No, I just can't be good enough
For anything but misery

I saw an angel the other day
I said hello but didn't stay
I've given up on happy things
My angels only sadness bring
But it came back to try again
As if my thoughts would change by then
I said "I've nothing left to give"
It said, "I just want you to live..."

When I was young I lived in fairy tales
Where every monster met its fate
I knew each damsel would be rescued
From her world of bitter hate
But who decides if I am worthy?
If I deserve to escape the pain?
Should I accept the loving kindness
Or only years of endless rain?

Author's Note

I don't know... Just random thoughts, I guess.

Reviews

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This is absolutely stunning. I read this poem and felt torn. There is a lot of hope inside of me that was inspired....Even though it was such a sad tale. It made me want to just scream out "Its not over yet". I loved the images. This poem reads like a comic book. You did a brilliant job.

[Natalie]

Excellent. It was very enjoyable :D

[Liza]

i have often found myself trying to grasp this theory but you penned it beautifully and helped me think as well
there are times i do not feel alone even if i am physically alone
there is a divine presence i have felt that has helped me find a place of comfort and inner peace at times of despair you so beautifully expressed - thank you for sharing.

[Miss Coral]

Beautiful piece. The concept itself is amazing, not even going into your words.
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. I liked the repetition and subtle rhyming. Excellent.

[ashley]

This poem is incredible. It blows my mind, because I was just talking about this exact thing a few days ago. This stanza right here brought tears to my eyes, because it's how I've felt for forever now:

When I was young I lived in fairy tales
Where every monster met its fate
I knew each damsel would be rescued
From her world of bitter hate
But now I know its only myth
It wasn't meant for ones like me
No, I just can't be good enough
For anything but misery

Fantastic job, as always. Heartfelt and true. Thank you so much for sharing. :D

Wow. This was amazing. It sounded very real, and true to the heart. I wish I had an angel, someone to talk to and tend. This was unreal, very great job.