It Only Gets Worse At Night

It only gets worse at night

These feelings that hide in the day

Coming to life when all is quiet

When they know that there’s nothing to help me hide it

My desire for happiness keeps them at bay

But it only gets worse at night

 

It only gets worse at night

My pounding heart and labored breaths

The curdling anguish that lurks inside

That heavy darkness I can’t divide

The thoughts of whether life or death

And it only gets worse at night

 

It only gets worse at night

The panic I feel as I turn out the light

The thoughts I pretended were never there

My veil of protection from the dark of despair

I no longer have the will to fight

And it only gets worse at night

 

It only gets worse at night

And I know that you don’t understand

Cuz I cant let you see

What its doing to me

When I’m the one holding your hand

But it only gets worse at night

I swear that I’m losing my mind

Its driving me crazy inside

And I try to be strong

So that you can hold on…

 

But it only gets worse at night

Author's Note

again, just trying to write my feelings away...

Reviews

[Tommy]

The sad thing is I can relate to this piece, these feelings are all too real for me at times. I wonder sometimes if people can truly understand. I know many suffer, but I think we are unique to our suffering, so it makes it hard to talk about it with the ones we love; feeling that they will look at us different if we share.

I like this piece a lot!
RLG,
Tommy

[Elvina CZq]

Instead saying getting worse in the dark/darkness, you make it as night, which also represents darkness. I really like this one. It's like you're saying you're in fear when it's dark, but you're not making it overly obvious with the word. Good job on this.. and yes, I think everyone gets through this moment in their life as well. So, be strong :) and don't stop writing.

[little lily Bride of Ch..]

very sad i can relate i think many can made me cry i went though this wheni lost a young friend and a Family member had killed him self. It tears me up inside when someone does that to them selfs but if i lost my son life would be hard to bare. this is a sad but beautiful piece

[Christina May Shanaberg]

I loved this poem very much; it had so much feeling and I understand those feelings. The poem was well written and quite easy to follow!

[Dimples87]

Thanks for being so vulnerable as to share your own personal strength with us. This is very practically how anyone can relate to this subject matter. But you described in the best way that relates to you which is what I liked about this piece. Almost like the words flowed off of your tongue onto the page, leaving a lasting memory in the minds of your readers - because that is how it feels for you, night after night. So, overall, great write especially the flow of your rhymes, very much enjoyed this.

[JENY]

Nice…very nice…
A wish remains unfulfilled in my mind…..
What is that ails you….
You made me curious….
Cat…

[Tina Kline]

You've captured this night time torture perfectly. It's always so much easier to keep our personal demons at bay during the day but night is so totally different and it doesn't matter if were busy or not it seems.

[Jibey]

Powerful writing - the refrain reinforces the sense of being attacked by gremlins... You also managed the rhythm and rhyme with real skill... I felt the intensity of it all

[Norma M Sutton]

Very well put. I think this poem describes to a tee why so many writers do their BEST work in the middle of the night.

[JenLyn]

I love this! I can completely relate to it, I suffer from anxiety and it always gets worse at night and I don't know why? Again a great write, I really like the repetition you used. Keep it up! :)

[Jessica Mai]

This touched me. Such a beautifully written piece and the emotion emitted is so strong. Really really well done on this piece. And i hope it starts getting better :)