First True Love

You make promises you never keep

And shatter my heart every time

You say you will change

But you never do

Then we are lost in our adventure of affection

I leave you and you leave me

We are no more

I am once again alone,

thinking;

Wondering of you

And what you are doing

My life is forever changed by you

But you do not even know

And you will never know

Then,

I wonder if you even ever cared to know

I cry so the heavens can hear my agony

And I dream wicked things

You are gone

Our past is gone

I am nothing

What am I without you?

No one

What can I do?

Everything I see reminds me of you

Again the blood in my veins burn with the pain of our past

And the inevitable fate of our futures

You will never know the gentle being prospering in my womb

Or how much you bruised my heart,

that loved you so for so many years

All those times when you said “I love you”

All those sweet kisses you placed all over me

The caress of your arms around my body

Those nights where I loved you

and you loved me back

How blind I was to trust in your deceiving words

And how foolish I was to believe in your lies

You will never know the person hidden beneath all my layers

Of love,

 Kindness,

and care

The entity whom you conjured and created

Devouring me from the inside out

It will soon take over me

And show you the hell

You made for me

You will experience the tears of blood that I have shed for you

The stabbing scars that now cover my heart

You cannot escape my wrath

And you will taste my vengeance

I will make you pay for the day you betrayed me

And my love

For you with your games and undevoted heart

You and your piercing eyes

You and your sense of charm

You and your inner devil

For the day I found you with her

I knew it would be over

I just never knew I would be over your sorry worthless corpse of a man

Now,

witnessing the life being drained from you;

with the heart you took from me in my hand.