I'm one step ahead of you

 

you know what I'm going to do

I am going to date like crazy, not hiding that fact

and yes I'm going to get on the retarded circuit of singles sites

I am telling you now

you freaking creepy a*s man

you better stay the hell away

none of your tricks and schemes

none of your bullshit

I smell you each time

 

you need to unclench your fist and let go

you have manipulated me for too long

my brother in law said you're playing "the Amy fiddle"

and my ex said it shouldn't be this much work

 

both men are right, I trust them both

I sought advice from both of them cause

they are the only man opinions that matter to me

 

I am moving on, having said my goodbye the best I could

leaving no stone unturned

I am asking you now to please

do not try to trick me in any way.

You have played a part

in my unwillingness to respond to other people

or reach out

because I never know if I'm being deceived or not

 

what's wrong with this picture?

why have I tolerated this?

where has my head been?

up my a*s I suppose

speaking of that

do you do the backdoor thing?

I bet you do.

I might have even let you.

 

But back to what I was saying

I want to walk away free and clear

and be able to talk to people

with no second guesses as to the real identity

you have hindered me

you, who try to correct me and say I'm not social enough

it starts with TRUST

and as of yet I cannot have that with you.

 

nutshell version:

stay away from me, I'll stay away from you.

 

*pax vobiscum*

 

 

Reviews

[David Lewis Paget]

A common problem among young couples is the one 'controlling' partner, who gains control by undermining his partners self-belief. It's not always the man, sometimes it's the woman who seeks to control. It's usually instigated out of fear, that the loved one might meet someone else, lose interest, be too charming and flirt in mixed gatherings etc.
But I'd watch that backdoor if I were you. It would probably pay you to get a fly screen fitted!
:-)
David.

[amy catherine]

it's sad, really- the thing is, I'm not really being "rejected"- he's just read one too many "nice guys finish last" articles. taking it to new extremes. This is the only reason I have so much patience with him, cause I know deep down he has no idea what he's doing- *sigh* makes me love him even more. He's cute like that. However I'm still moving on or else I will dissolve and rot, right here. I'm alive. Must tell myself that. He makes me feel dead.

[Legion]

Such intensity. I hope he gets the message. Very to the point. Like the backdoor thing too. ;)