Expulsion of uncertainty

I know what ails me,
My reflection appears,
To remind me of my sorrow,
Of my failure, of my pain,

What I know not is the path before me,
No red rays to shine the way,
Just a deep dark den,
With my head and a pen,
Hoping calamity resolves with certainty,

At war with myself,
over desire, over shame,
Crisp, creativity overflowing,
refractions of light,
Illuminating the above atmosphere,
Fortified beauty,
birthed from a poison laced egg.