Eyes

When I remember who I was

The hopelessness goes rushing back into my eyes

The hazel jewels scream out for some sort of rescue

But deep down I know the cries for help will never work

A painful memory haunts my every move

Eat less, you’re too fat.

You’re stupid, you’ll never be educated.

Nobody will ever love you

I pray to the one God I trust,

So that maybe I will cease to be haunted.

The gods have never helped, and they never will.

My cries for help have always been ignored.

My mother gave me my eyes

The mother who loved me

The mother who died from cancer

Leaving me with the fears that I will die too

Now my eyes tell a different story

They burst with fireworks of amber

The corners tighten when I smile,

I no longer need release

My God no longer ignores me,

Instead I’m pushed

Be more of a friend

Less of an enemy

More caring

Less cruel casualties

Just because eyes express,

Don’t mean they must control

Mine show hopelessness and defeat

But I don’t act that way.

Author's Note

I'm not sure how much I like this one since it needs a lot editing, but it would be nice to have some feedback for it.