A Broken Friendship

This is my angry poem that I wrote for me, not for revenge

You’ve broken us forever

always choosing him

over me.

I trusted everything in you.

Now all I can do is blame you.

You say you love him now,

but will you still love him

in a couple weeks?

You broke up before,

you seemed to not care too much.

He’s just a rebound.

I thought I wouldn’t just

be your afterthought.

I am now though,

and it breaks my heart everytime

I hear about you two together.

It’s not perfect, it’s depressing.

Let’s be real, I’m nothing to you.

I’m old toys sitting on the bottom shelf,

From when we were younger

A sour taste in your mouth.

An old carpet beneath your feet.

But that is not who I am.

I am a rainbow on a dark day.

Hopeful and ready to show who I am.

I am a timeless classic.

Who are you to put me down?

To throw me out?

You don’t have the right idea

if that was your idea.

I’m giving up on us, it’s

just unfair game at this point.

The game you want to play

It has no rules

Yet you still seem to find

Another way to cheat

Every single time.

When we talk,

I miss you

Is all that I ever wanted to say

Now I just want to scream

At you two together

Bad screams, like unleashing a storm

But I could never hurt you

I avoid you now in fear

Fear that you'll try to reconnect

Try to pretend to be my friend again

Just to break my heart

I feel as though I should apologize

For all of my wrongs,

Since you were always right

I’m sorry that I’m not a skinny bleach blonde

I’m sorry that I’m not who you wanted me to be.

I’m sorry that I wasn’t “Instagram Worthy”

I’m sorry that you couldn’t care enough to respect me

Now you see, I love you

Like a sister of course

We used to share everything

Now you just run off with your little boyfriend

It's like you're obsessed

But not with unicorns like we used to be

Not obsessed with the newest fashion trends

Like we used to pretend we were cool.

You're obsessed with him

He's the sun in your solar system,

On your own world, apart from this horrid place

That you’ve left me in.

He's the reason you go to school everyday

He's the reason that other girl talks behind your back everyday

He won't matter in a few years

It's just like puppy dog love

Author's Note

This poem is a wreck, but I performed it a competition recently and people usually like it so here it is.

Reviews

[Pooja Bader ( Pehel )]

It touches soul of the reader. Wonderfully drafted.

[RannunculusBlooms]

I. LOVE. THIS. POEM. 1235/10 GREAT EMOTION!!