my heart is black

this is very bad i'm sorry please don't hate my guts

My heart is black,

My soul is black, and I do not deserve my friends,

My father, aragorn, only acts to even loves me, so I am alone.

Its dead now, the baby, helpless, lonely soul, though I trully believe it thanked me that day,

Thanked me for sending it away from my evil father.

The day I took it's life, because I could not stand it,

I thought of being ruthless and not caring of it's thoughts,

he locked me up, all in the darkness, for none to ever see,

My heart turned black, scared of everything, and that poor little girl,

Unloved everyday, punished at night,

For each time I refused to take it's life.

The look on its face, the fear in its eyes, is burned forever in my soul

That day I did it, the day I turned my back, on that which I forever known,

I had done it, killed it, let it breathe her last breath on this earth

All because I could not stand, that look I saw of disbelief.

The look from that man whom now seems to love me,

Because my heart blood, and because of yours red. I am forever different.

I can't seem to die, Or even get hurt, this heart of a demon I am burdened with

A curse more like, in my eyes. No one sees the pain I go through, so they think it is a gift.

I didn't think my friends were there to hurt me,he always does

I can't ever seem to get him to stop he just laughs and bullies me around.

So again and again

I sit here alone

In my own little safe circle

Here in my dried up desert, with none but fake love

I always hurt people, not even on purpose, so never come and break the line.

Because the difference between me and you, the difference is our whole lives.

My heart is black, my weapon is my pain

My only friend is life who is never even kind to me,

The only thing I have in life, is that which is my demon's heart.

Never loved, never thought of, not questioned, nor worried about.

Not once in my life

In my what 12 years?

Was I never told to be loved

Was I ever shown sorrow too?

Never in my life,

Will. I. Now. Believe.

Author's Note

sorry this is very very bad i'm so so so sorry