Why Don't I Belong...

This was my most popular poem before i came here..

Everyone says that I don't belong
I feel like i don't fit in with these people
But the thing in my chest, that beats, Longs for there approval
Will i ever have it?
Or will i be forever cast into the lake of shadows?

The moon and the sun chase one-another
Like lovers in a cosmic dance
Leaving the stars to cry and bleed from the knife of loneliness
I am a star, forever a drift in the black sea
Silent and there but never noticed

A song and a melody are weapons and tools in the same
A song of my life is a sad tune
Quiet and uninteresting in many ways
Other musical notes strung together
Always seem to make a better song than I

I'm sorry for whatever i've done to you
For what i can't do for people
Now letting them in my life because of others
And pushing good people away to protect them from me
The monster i really am, a beast of lies and despair

I don't make friends because no one can be my friend

I am a leaf, forever adrift in life's strong blow
Never having a stable place to rest
Or a safe haven to hide from my troubles
I'm sorry you have to see me, but i won't stay for long

I am only a burden to you and all around you
This realm of nightmares and demons
Twisting and wrapping my tainted soul
For I look at the devastation i have wrought
And close my eyes to pretend its a dream

So in this one life, I hold dear to my broken heart
I cry out in pain, for not feeling like i belong somewhere
Perhaps i wasn't meant to be born at all
Perhaps i was a mistake from the universe
Because i cause nothing but destruction where i stand

I must beg for your forgiveness and ask for your sympathy
Please forgive me for being in your life and effecting you
I'm better off not belonging, like a gear that doesn't fit
A worthless part of a bigger thing
I'm sorry i am here...

I'm so sorry i was born..

Reviews

[Magnus]

Nice and good......................

[Yusuf]

good story ...........................................

[Wolfwind]

OH! First of all I shall say... I can relate! I'm always asking people why they react this way or that to things around me and they either can't explain themselves or beat around the bush and the overall effect is a crap taken by the emotional core.... Then I realized something important... Most people don't have a clue how to explain themselves in anything more than one line simple expressions... Thus.. I've gotton to the point where I simply tell them... I need a puzzle to understand what I've done, don't just throw me a piece.

This flow of ink is very well put together... even though it ends on that really low self hate mode... I reckon we all feel it once in while... but if it becomes a habit... then give a shout out and we poets who've been throught the wars of life will help ya feel better! After all... poets are about sharing laughter and happiness around the world! =D

Thanks for scribbling some fine ink here! Much enjoyed giving it a read!
Aaron - Wolfwind

[shallimarRose]

I really enjoyed this.. However the first half was especially well written. shallimarRose