StuckA Poem by Jonathan BrownStuck JB
Today I entertained a
thought that nobody would want I saw you, another
man, and another life It was the only
thought that almost brought me to tears just to picture I say almost because I
can’t cry, and haven’t cried in a long time I feel like my heart
is breaking more and more, yet getting harder at the same time I can feel us, see us,
and hear us growing farther than ever from each other It’s the worst feeling
in the world feeling alone when you are with that person everyday I keep wondering where
god is at in this picture of my life I can’t find him even
though he says he’s here See its getting to the
point where I can’t cover up my pain You know that all
smiling face you always see on me That person who always
has some sort of joke or something to laugh about Its leaving me I wish I wanted to
keep fighting for this, I beg myself to, but I can’t It’s what brought me
to imagining you with another life without me To stop fighting for
the person I thought saved me from myself in the beginning hurts I can feel that deep
deep scar in my heart I never expected it to
change once we had our girl But it did I hope it’s not your
fault, I know how easy it is to forget the people who love you when you’ve
found an un ending love in your fist born child I’m just expressing my
deepest emotions towards us I’m sorry I can’t
communicate it in person it’s too much See in your mind all I
want is your body and that’s all It’s not true, never
was, I just wanted your love is all A man can only handle
so much rejection from his combined soul That’s what’s happened
to me, I’ve finally collapsed and fell I try to pick myself
up but I can’t When every other thing
you do is a failure how can you keep standing up from that For better or for
worse is a joke When it got worse you
ran when it was better you stayed When I was mentally
sick I got shame not love I can feel the f*****g
tears welling up in my eyes This is where I shut
it off, where I scream at god And say thanks a lot. I’m angry, I’m broken,
and lost in my thoughts.
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