they don't know what love is

I have a girlfriend,

and she makes me unbelievably happy.

And I thought a month ago that I would miserably for a long time.

I'm still working through issues of course, but my God...

She makes it better.

Like I can breathe again

like my chest isn't caving in anymore.

But now I'm scared, because I love a girl.

And I know my family won't accept me for that.

I won't change my mind about her

if I'm not accepted,

but it'll hurt.

Knowing that they can't love me

for who I love. 

Her name is Alex

and her laugh is loud and quirky,

she works the graveyard shift at a diner

on the side of the highway,

and her eyes are the most brilliant 

silver-blue I have ever seen.

And they are filled with absolute hope.

I don't know how anyone will react,

or how it will effect me,

but for the first time since I can remember...

I'm happy

Author's Note

this came out of me today and I don't like it