Tell Me

Old insecurities
Ones that never really heal
I see too much
It hurts too much
Don't you see
See me
Every day spent
Is a day I use
To hear you say
She's beautiful
She's banging
He's so handsome
Is it petty that I want that too
To be told that I am beautiful
That YOU think I'm beautiful
But I only get bits and pieces of the way you feel
You care about me
Too much to make any commitments
But this space between 
It eats at my soul 
Jealously that I'm not allowed
Because it doesn't belong with my label
But a label doesn't stop
The way I feel
Even knowing its temporary
I may never lose you completely
But I will lose this piece of you
The quiet nights curled together 
The bright mornings spent laughing
The soft sweet kisses
A passion that never really goes away
What are we without that?
I never could figure that out
Because you chose someone else
And I know the bounty they receive
In those things that I'll lose
It eats always at me
Wanting to just be happy for you
But missing those things I love the most
The sweet secrets
Whispered between the sheets 

Knowing they'll never last

Cherishing every moment

As if it is the last 

Because it could be the last 

So much love to give

Deserving as much as I give

The future is no place to place your better days

Focusing on the now 

Placing my love in today

Giving everything I feel to the moment