Poetic Self-Hate

Sometimes, it's hard to write positively about yourself. Its harder when you have depression and self esteem issues.

Positivity 

Most minds lacking 

In consistency 

Poets tell me 

Why is it incredibly

Hard to write a happy poem 

No

That doesn’t include her

Yes 

Her

 A happy topic

No 

I mean 

Very happy

Yes

Love 

Very happy topic

No 

I mean a happy one 

About me 

An optimist

But self-love does not linger

Beauty doesn’t smile upon me 

Dark circles

Many restless nights

Spent crying

Scars from picking

At pimples

Scars from picking

At pain 

Just big b***s

With a big a*s

I guess 

Some positivity?

But I curse my Latin hips

Wide and pronounced 

My self-hate only begins

Personality is everything?.

Questioning her love 

For my sarcastic mouth

Swearing like a sailor

Everyday spent

At home 

Darkness by choice 

In bed

Reruns of Friends

Don’t get me wrong 

Talents in me

Poetry

Reciting lines of tv and movies

And completely falling apart.

Reviews

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This poem is so intense and put on display insecurities and self deprecating behavior. This happens because we see ourself through the lense of the society we each individual lives in. The hardest thing is to achieve is to have self-love, so you have big hips then accept them and know they are beautiful because their are you. Thanks for sharing the inner conflict that comes with trying to achieve self love. N.
"For the beauty that is you"-Elena Lincoln.

[iamshadowine]

"Darkness by choice
In bed
Reruns of Friends
Don’t get me wrong
Talents in me
Poetry
Reciting lines of tv and movies
And completely falling apart."

excellent lines! i love the way you've right aligned your text, it's something new!
i loved your poem! it's incredible!

keep writing :D

[Broken Molecules]

Thank you so much. I actually rewrote almost every line you quoted just before posting it. Well actually a lot of lines. And I felt that the alignment needed a change. When I changed it, it just felt right. Haha. But thanks. 😊